I recommend everyone reads this. I've been putting this off for a while now, but I need to rip off the bandaid. It is tough for me to be open about this, but if I could help just one person, I would be greatly happy. I want people to understand how immensely important mental health is.
As many of you know, after all my incredibly hard work - including a little blood, TONS of sweat, and a few tears, I was recently hired as a firefighter. Unfortunately, after a few weeks in, I got a few especially tough calls back to back and found out that the job is just not meant for me. I am so disappointed and honestly very embarrassed. I went back and forth so many times (and I still wonder..), but I knew what I had to do for my mental health. I have been very closed off and have had no motivation to do anything. I haven't been openly sharing what's been going on (for obvious reasons).You never know what someone is going through, so ask someone, genuinely, how they are doing. You can help someone, or even save a life. I have also learned that no matter how many people are "there for you" - or say they are, but aren't, you still feel alone. I have never felt so alone, but that's just how depression works.
I have had to go to counseling due to the effects that I've had since the incidents plus it has helped me with my own personal life (I've been to counseling prior to this, but had stopped due to insurance). Going to counseling is nothing to be ashamed of. I'm honestly quite proud to be going. It has helped me through my depression, anxiety, adjustment disorder, and PTSD. It is so important that everyone takes care of their mental health and not try to be "the tough guy" or "strong" constantly. It takes a toll and can wear you down. I have seen the cost that people have paid by holding back from letting out their true feelings. Some of them are not here now to tell you their story. Please take care of yourselves.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I hope this helps you or encourages you to reach out to someone that you know might be going through a rough time.
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