So last night I let the devil when 😒 I am strong, positive, and faithful most of the time. I can see the good things in bad situations and I can be truly happy for others! But last night something struck a nerve that I normally push away and I crumbled. “Why God?” “Why me? Why us?” “What did I do to deserve this struggle with infertility” “Why is it so simple for others and not us?” “Just let us have our baby!!” I know not to compare our story and our journey with others but last night I wanted to give up everything! Throw in the towel to trying!! Delete my social media!! Not see or speak of this crap again! But I can’t. This is our testimony and we were put here to walk through it, grow through it, and we are strong enough to get through it! God knows what’s best but sometimes it does feel like we are forgotten about. This journey has a lot of valleys but I have to trust God still sees us there and he never leaves us there! #realfeels #infertilitystruggles #infertilitysucks #growthroughwhatyougothrough
We are closing up our shop at the end of the day today but want to make sure we get the word out to as many people as possible!
For every 'share', 'tag' or 'mention' that we see from right now until 8pm, your name will be entered in a drawing to win one of the sweatshirts we shared this month! Instagram and Facebook included!
The more shares, tags or mentions, the better your chance to win!
A few people asked what happened to the video we were going to upload yesterday. And the simple answer is, we got into an argument. At the time it seemed like a big argument and we didn't speak for a time being. But by the end of the night we both just shrugged it off. Watched the Krampus movie and today we laughed at it in a somewhat argumentative way. But it was still more lite hearted. When it comes to relationships never try to go to bed angry. And if you do when you wake up and fix the issue. I will say that while infertility has at times caused shifts between us. It's also helped us create a thicker "glue" that helps us stay together. #marriedlife
I had a really really hard night tonight. I went to a graduation party for a dear friend and it’s been a while since I’ve been with all these people. Being around people gives me anxiety and I find it really hard making small talk. People always ask how you are and while my answer is always “everything is good” my heart says “STRUGGLING” when they ask what I’ve been up to the answer is “not much” or “same ol same ol” while the truth is ”surviving”. This group of people I saw tonight are extended family and friends I once spent a lot of time with before...now most have had a kid since or two and their youngest are a year or two. And it fills me with so much grief for the time and friendships infertility has stolen and life that has happened while stuck in this place for so long.
I know I’m to blame. I’m the one who distances themselves when you’re pregnant cause I’m jealous and think why not me? I’m the one who won’t make plans with you if you’ve had kids since my struggle cause hearing about your motherhood struggles crushes me.
But how do you be there and support others when it brings up so much anger and hurt? and how do you repair what has been lost when you are unable to emotionally connect? Is it too late?
Maybe I’m starting to figure out my lesson for this journey...thoughts or advice are welcomed, does anyone else struggle with this?
Yesterday I watched this film on Netflix....And I am not going to lie, it is incredibly sad, but also very relatable. It is about a couple who are going through the struggles of infertility and the strain it can put on both yourself and your relationships.
It's great to see that awareness is being raised about the issue and helped to reassure me that I am not alone and I am not crazy! I would recommend a watch if you are feeling emotionally up for it ❤ x
#privatelife #netflix #infertility #infertilityjourney #ttc #ttccommunity #ivf #iui #eggdonor #adoption #infertilitystruggles
"Be happy you woke up this morning to be able to fix your problems." #goodmorning
everyone today is a new day and we plan on putting out some videos and doing pictures.
✨“For this Child I have prayed and the Lord has granted me the desires of my heart” 1 Samuel 1:27✨
We have waited and prayed for approximately 705 days. It may not seem too long but some days felt like an eternity. It was a difficult season during the first year and was struggling in what seemed like all areas of my life.
Last year I rededicated my life to the Lord after realizing I couldn’t do it on my own. ✨“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them, He delivers them from all their troubles” Psalm 34:17 ✨ Fast forward to this year the Lord has given me so much Strength, peace, and Joy as i focused on My walk with the Lord.
I finally came to a place that I trusted in God’s plan and accepted that maybe we weren’t meant to have a second child as much as I wanted another. Shortly after that we found out we were pregnant! ✨”Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart” Psalm 37:4 ✨
We are so thankful and extremely blessed to be able to make this announcement. God is so good!
We can’t wait to meet you and hold you and you are already so loved❤️. Your brother is very excited and anxious for you to be here. He already loves to give you hugs and kisses 😍
We are truest blessed to have so many friends and family surrounding us during this journey, lifting us up in prayer. Please continue to keep this little miracle in your prayers ✨
#infertilitystruggles #Godmovesmountains #April2019 #Godisgood #pregnancyannouncement #familyof4 #toddlermom #bigbrother #bigbrothersign #bigbrotherannouncement @chalk_n_ink_
One of my biggest wishes is to get Mr. Bear restored and pass him down to my first born. He is 45 years old and my mom gave him to me because she had him when she was a baby. Now if we have twins like we want then I guess I will be "forced" to keep him for myself. Did you pass down anything to your kids that you had as a child or do you plan too?
My post about our first RE consultation is live! Link below and in my bio 💗🍍✨ I would love to connect with you there and hear how your first consultations went! 😘♥️
Would you do it with your bestie?? The journey to hormonal health, fertility and conception is one wild ride. It comes with wonderful highs and sometimes soul crushing lows. For a long time I have swept my conditions under the rug choosing not to face them because of how hard the process is and how vulnerable I feel when trying to make change or get help. -
My best friend has been using implanon for the past 5 years and decided to have it removed because she wanted to conceive. -
A few months later, no period and a PCOS diagnosis my friend is consistenly thinking about if she will ever have a baby or not. As you could image the stress levels are HIGH!
Soooo.... with that in mind I booked in my consultant with @naturalfertilityinfo
(tick of my time to heal to do list - see earlier post) and then I sent the link straight to my friend and said check out the link, have a consult, THEN lets follow the guidence and work through our journeys together. To my surprise I had a response back in seconds saying 'I'll do it if you help me'.
It is really easy to feel alone and helpless during this journey and its important to reach out, talk, ask for help and take calculated steps to make improvements. Im sure our journeys will differ but we are stronger together. If you know someone struggling reach out and become a team, do it together!!
Or you can share your journey with me as I will with you. The universe has a plan for us, we just need to be patient and follow the process. Its important to learn from the journey and see ourselves with love and not dissapointment.
#wegotthis #naturalfertility #bestfriends #amenorhea #pcos #ttc
Be grateful that you woke up this morning with the ability to fix your problems. Fertility is a problem and somewhere there is a solution. There are many guys out there that are struggling and at times they may feel emasculated. You feel like you're broken because you can't give your partner the one thing they want the most. But gentlemen you're not broken, in fact these struggles will make you stronger. And a better father once you meet the precious little life you helped to create.
Marriage is a union of two imperfect people coming together. And when you add those two people trying to become three it can get a bit unbalanced. Ladies always remember to keep smiling, keep loving yourself. You're not "broken" or damaged. You're just a mommy in the making. I have to remind myself of that constantly but thankfully I have a good husband that can help me remember. #infertilityblogger
🌸 C y c l e D a y O n e 🌸
We push ourselves through so much.
And for what?
Infertility is beginning to beat me.
I’m questioning the next two cycles of stims, of the next three blood tests that will tell me I’m not ovulating, the laparoscopy to remove the cyst and the IVF.
Why should we have to walk the path someone else chose for is?
I’ll walk down whatever path I want too.
Fuck you, Mother Nature 🖕🏼
Somedays I want to give up, I want to run away from infertility, I want to pretend like I don't know that I'm infertile, I want to go on a date with the man I love without talking about infertility steps, I want to be the woman who was carefree and always laughing, but then I find the strength to try again. I don't know why I'm infertile yet, half of me doesn't want to know. I'm facing the decision of doing a laparoscopy before going to an RE. I'm not sure what I'll do but I will try @storkotc.
Does anyone have any success stories or tips on how to improve my chances? I may have endometriosis. I ovulate regularly and my bloodwork is good.
In honor of #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness
Month, listen to me share my personal journey with Heather on episode 144 of her uber-popular podcast @beatinfertility
We do a deep dive into my journey through multiple miscarriages, the stillbirth of my daughter Maeve, and the eventual arrival of my rainbow baby, Fiora. Find out how I learned to advocate for myself (and how you can too), the importance of surrounding yourself with people who "get it," and how to develop resilience that helps you thrive no matter what your circumstances. ❤️
I feel so bad seeing her get poked, prodded, medicated and tested all the time. She has an upcoming ultrasound and then a trigger shot. And this time we're making the RE do the IUI to at least give it a try. We're thinking maybe three IUI's before going to IVF and after that, who knows? #hurryupbaby
Today’s the day! Our first consultation is at 10:30 and we’re a bundle of nerves and excitement 🍍✨ Notebook full of questions ✅ full night’s sleep ✅ fur baby time ✅ keychain, wristlet, post-it notes, and pineapple tattoo from #ttcsisters
✅ thousands of papers from insurance and hubby’s SA ✅ prayers ✅ precious messages of encouragement from besties ✅
I think we’re ready y’all! Thanks to all of you for praying for us and encouraging us while we’ve been in the agonizing wait you’re so familiar with. I hope we get good news today, but if we don’t, I’m grateful for this community that will help us keep fighting. Love to each of you today and as always, let me know how I can be praying for you! 💗🍍✨💗🍍✨💗🍍✨
Shifting you focus from one thing to another should be easy right?? W R O N G !! This by far is the hardest part of journey in both recovering from an eating disorder and now hypothalomic amenorrhea. Despite my good intentions I often find myself unconsciously slipping back in to my old ways. Particulary with food and excercising.
I take away one form of excerices only to add in another and justify it as 'just for fun' when deep down Im doing it to burn calories. Or I will be eating a delicious meal only to realise in the back of my mind I am counting possible calories. Both of which do not assist me with improving my health.
As with anything making shifts takes time and practice which we need to be accomodating to too. I have kept the pole dancing but strentch in the morning instead of resistance training. If I notice myself counting calories I rediret my though to something else. My focus is my feminine health and fertility, not my image. -
On a positive note I have NOT had coffee for 3 days now 😁 I have had a headache since yesterday but other than that feeling great. I have made a change to improve my health. We can read all the info we want but unless we are willing to apply it nothing will change. -
How to stay focused :
🧚♀️ Remind yourself of your goal and why its important to you
🧚♀️ Before making decisions think if it will assist or sabotage your goal, if unsure wait 20mins and think again
🧚♀️ Visualise your life the way you envision is to be
What ever your focus/goal is stay true to the steps required to achieving it! You can achieve what ever your mind perceives ❤ -
#focus #ammenorhea #recovey
40 weeks we are here 😁
As I reflect on the last year and try to remember the moments that have lead us to her, I cant help but feel so grateful!! I CANT BELIEVE IM GOING TO BE A MUM 🤗❤
I sit and try to soak up every little movement because I know I will miss this as soon as she is here! But dont get me wrong I am so excited to start our family life... it is still bitter sweet.
I have kept super busy this week so the week has passed by really quickly, house is all nested and ready for her and I to be loved up and not do anything for a few months ❤
I get messages on the daily asking about baby ect its so sweet.
On the other hand also get those "have you tried long walks to bring her on" ect 🙄 lol
Although I want her here NOW! I am not in a rush, I am happy for her to determine her bday and I will wait patiently and go with the flow.
I had a nap yesterday afternoon after a big morning of yard work! BIG MISTAKE... I didnt get to sleep until 2am and now I am so tired 😂
This week- -I feel good, I dont feel heavily pregnant, I feel ready mentally and phsycially! And also prepared "things" wise! -Her head is still high
-I have had a show over 3 different days over the last 5 days
- I feel like rest and nutrition take a front seat up until the main event!
Week 40!!! Woohoooooo....
So grateful and so blessed
We were family long before our little one arrived. But since he was born we’ve become FAMILY.
Our journey took many years, many tears, we hit so many walls, we gave up so many times, but seems that everything happened the way it was supposed to. I am just beyond grateful 🙏❤️