The man is gifted. He is currently painting a piece based on one of my poems... I am so honoured and grateful to be share his work with mine once again, art by @luisxart @navarrofineart
titled "Flamenco" ... please visit his page and spread some love.
Swipe to read "Me Ever After" 💓
I start missing you again and so to try and remind myself why you're gone.
I start reading all those messages those horrid messages, that you and I sent to each other, in the throes of our despair. I get so upset for a moment, wondering, how two people, who once shared a life together, can now be so poisonous in the words they spit?
Then that voice in my head, that likes to tell me the obvious, reminds me,
it's all the language of pain.
That same voice then goes on to point out, that this missing that I'm experiencing actually has very little to do with you or us.
It's about the fact that somewhere along the line I lost myself in loving you. Morphed into a stranger, someone I no longer recognise.
I was missing the point, that the person that I'm missing, is me.
The Me Before You, the me before I, tried being everything else but who I was.
The me that you said fell in love with.
Not the me, that spent so long trying to live up to your expectations,
that she forgot about her own needs.
Not the me, that once she did remember, shelved herself, after being told she was selfish, for attempting to make herself a priority.
Not the me, that continually tried to be, do, think, just as you asked.
You know, the only thing that Me Before You and Me All About You
had in common, was the desire to make you happy.
But not at the cost of my own happiness. No.
So, since I can no longer be the Me Before You and I do not wish to remain the Me All About You.
Now, when I get that longing, that 'missing', I try to focus on developing the new me, the Me Ever After.
I hope upon hope, that she will be, the best version of herself yet. .
Natalie White ©2018
Artist credit: @luisxart
🎨Title : Flamenco