J'en ai vu d'autres plages
Je les ai oubliées 🌴
to a very drunken, very un-beardy bad hair day.
I walked out of the therapy office, the sky grey and beautiful, with birds calling out to me. (This always grounds me.) I realized the world is not the same as when I started therapy - or rather, my world is not the same. My world has been turned on it's head - in the best way possible. I trust in all my decisions. I am excited by change. I deeply love myself and refuse to stop. I don't apologize for taking up space. I have control over what I think about and how my anxiety affects me. I feel like I'm enough.
Today was the last day of therapy before I move. I've been with this therapist for two years and it was one of the best learning experiences of my life. Therapy, along with medication, have been life-changing. I now think in ways that I thought were completely impossible. I feel ways I didn't know I was capable of feeling. I love that life is an endless sea of choices. And I feel like I have the ability to shape my life into what I want it to be.
I always used to listen to "Good Day" by OceanLab and want to cry. It's a song about being deeply depressed and stagnant, but still having moments of remembering who you are and "it feels like me on a good day." I realized for the first time I don't relate anymore. I relate from the other side. I don't feel depressed or stagnant. I feel kinetic and in-tune with myself. My eyes squint and sting. They're happy tears now.
You know on the last day of school in the good old days, when the leavers would sign one another’s shirts with marker pen? Well LOOK at this Tshirt! It is adorned with the precious handprints of the year 6 group at Cub’s primary. It is the most fantastic memento, a wonderful idea, a beautiful way to mark a miraculous year group’s primary school life/rollercoaster together.
No, most of them can’t grab a marker, they can’t remove the lid or scrawl ‘ILY 4 LYF’ (or whatever the youth of today would scribble...) but everyone has a shirt with everyone’s mark on.
I am tearful, I am proud, I am feeling slightly ancient at the prospect of my babyCub leaving Primary for Secondary on Tuesday but my gosh - this Tshirt ♥️ The Cubface Alumni has been done proud. What an absolute brainwave. #💋🐯
Can we just fast forward to Saturday
Back from the gym. First time in over a month. Must go more often. An hour of power mincing has done me in.
"A lei do cão não é nada mais que a própria lei do homem..."
They're driving fast cars, but they don't know where they're going 🌿🍃
Werq The World was amazing, thank you all for this moment 💕
I finally saw Shangela and I touched Valentina 😭😭 #halleloo
How do I sleep at night? Ask your husband 🤷🏼♀️
Another picture of myself because I’m feeling cute, so it doesn’t really matter 🤷🏽♂️✨
Mille neuf cent nonante-huit 💭🥡
Yo MTV welcome to my crib.