Oh happy Summer Solstice from Minnesota! I have been MIA for a while! Travelling with my hubby! I have a dresser to refinish this weekend, pics & Sawdust post coming soon!
I am struggling right now. Trying to always be kind, even when others are unkind to me. Social media has not been very kind lately, I'm trying to stay away, mostly facebook, ugh! You will find truth here, nothing but heartfelt words here.
Praying to God my son is doing ok on his own, he moved out a few weeks ago.
Did I teach him enough to survive on his own? Will he find his voice & speak up for himself? Will he protect himself physically, emotionally & sexually...I do not want to be a grandma yet!!! Is he eating ok? I protected them as best I could growing up.
I was not a model mom, but I would not let anyone hurt them. I hurt them, sadly, but I protected them from others! By hurt, I don't mean I actually physically hurt them. I did the best I could with what I had. I was a yeller! I would yell about the littlest things...I never learned how to channel frustration, nor that life is 10% what happens to us & 90% how we react to it! I'm not a yeller anymore, but I was. I hate myself for those years, but that's in the past.
I was not protected as a child... I was abused emotionally (neglected in my opinion) by my mother. She would rather go out, drink & party...I was about 6, she was 36. At about 8, I was being sexually abused by a man she was fucking for work done on our house....but she would get drunk & pass out, so I had to pay her dues. I paid those dues until I found my voice to stand up, to only be silenced! #MeToo
I have so much hate, but I'm choosing kindness 💜 Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice.
Be kind to one another ~ Ephesians 4:32