Sometimes motherhood can be maddening. Waking up tired. Robotic work all round the clock. No breaks. Working with a hundred hands but still not being able to pull off the day. Tantrums. Mom guilts. Screaming toddler and some more screaming from soon to be toddler. Patience. Patience. Patience. Questioning sanity. Forgiveness for them and for yourself.
This season mamas.
Despite its challenges is the most blessed one and when we will look back to these days, we will only laugh at the moments that once passed so hard on us.. Because like the good moments, the rough ones are also gone by too soon.
We will miss them being small and fluffy , one day they will outgrow our laps and our heart will be happy but just a little more sad for maybe we didn't offer our happy laps at all times when it was all they needed and maybe we just did not enjoy enough cuddles.
Kiss a little too often, hug tighter, cuddle longer for they will grow, grow to be independent and will not need us like they do now..but a mama heart always wants her fluff to need her, a little less maybe but the feeling of being needed just fills up the heart and makes it full, Pump and stay alive.
When I was a new mother and going through ppd badly, I asked my sister is it really worth giving your all to your children.. What do I get in return?
She said a very beautiful thing that still touches me like it did then..
" aulad tu bht pyari cheez hay, buhat meethi, muhabbat se bharpoor.. Zindagi tu jaisi b guzar hi jati hay likin yeh yakeen tu hay k mai mar jao gi tu koi roye na roye ye tu zaroor roye gay meray marnay par. Bus yahi kafi hay." May ALLAH protect our parents and offsprings, keep them upon eman, healthy and content. Ameen.