This time probably a month ago, I was feeling unbelievably good about myself. I was happy with my progress physically and mentally. I was happy with everything going on in my life.
Now, not so much... I go through phases where I somewhat slip into a downward spiral and everything in my life seems worthless and I feel worthless. I won’t go into the explicit thoughts and questions I ask myself.
However I feel it’s important for people to know that anyone, no matter who you are, go through shitty days. Some have those shitty days more than others. And that’s okay!
Things may not seem as bright right now, and it’s okay to feel those horrible things. However never allow yourself to become consumed by it, no matter how tempting it is to willow in your own sadness. Keep pushing forward.
Acknowledging that your having a bad time and acknowledging those feelings are important. Connect with yourself and feel all that you need to feel and then move forward. Pain can aid in developing strength physically, mentally and emotionally. As cliche as it sounds, just keep moving forward. -
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #keepmovingforward #keepongrowing #keeponkeepingon
I know that some people don't like musicals, and that's cool. But this is really my mantra, and something I tell myself every.single.day.
There's going to be days where shit gets hard, when knowing you have HIT to do after you just got your ass handed to you by your coach and you just want to go home to sleep... When your cramps are so bad you're trying not to puke on the stairmaster but you still have 15 mins left...Pain right now is irrelevant to the goal I've committed to, and to all the goals I set after that.
Push yourself, because at the end, your results will pay out, and you'll be happy you didn't give up 🤘🏽
Let’s talk about “progress.” What does that word mean to you?
When I started Cotton+Co. in September 2018, I had so many ideas of what “should” happen: Lots of sales right away, shops around the Inland Northwest clamoring to carry my pillows in their shop, making a profit within the first month or two. But the truth? None of that happened. At least not right away. The truth is, it’s been a slow, but steady build toward those expectations. And that has come with hard work, late nights, perseverance, not giving in when I wanted to quit and just pushing forward with my eye on the prize. What I’ve come to realize is that’s perfectly acceptable. And I am proud of what I’ve accomplished so far!
So no matter what goal you have dreamed up for yourself, keeping moving forward, because as Confucius says “It doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you don’t stop.”
It’s okay not to be okay.
Hence why I have not posted for a while
3 weeks ago I was in Masca a tiny village in the astonishing mountain terrain of Tenerife. One of my favourite places.
Only 9 weeks earlier I had the worlds first chest reconstruction surgery using specially individually designed 3D printed titanium ribs .
I pushed really hard on my cardio walking fast and slow working up to 10km every other day in Tenerife . I pushed so hard I ended up with multiple blisters on both feet.
However the 12 week consultant review upon my return to the U.K. showed just how well my left lung had filled every space of its new home.
I was elated however it had come at some cost as both my knees were crippled with pain with worn and torn meniscus . I had also dramatically reduced my opioid intake as it was at such dangerous and unsafe level. This also came at a price and in conjunction with deteriorating personal and environmental circumstances sent me head first into a very dark place that I wasn’t expecting.
You just do not know what and when something is going to smack you in the face. If you take enough sustained blows you go down.
I want to be really honest here. Having such Pioneering surgery was always a massive risk but my only option. It was never going to be the miracle cure surgery that would put me perfectly back together . It was always going to be a long road back to whatever It allowed me to achieve.
Unfortunately trying to address along the way the long term prescribed Fentanyl , opioid and all the rest of the controlled drugs is a whole different Storey with there horrendous side effects .
I might be currently knocked on the floor but I have not come this far to stay down . With the help and support of friends family and everyone else fighting in my corner I will keep going However difficult the situation is currently right now
Never give up ! .
#care #help #hope #life #health #support #love #friends #nurburgring #motorcycle #crash #survivor #world #first #bespoke #chest #titanium #reconstruction #surgery #lifechanging #instagood #spoonie #spoonielife #chronicillness #mentalhealth #depresión #keeponkeepingon
Sorry guys, I need a release. Let’s dare not talk about real life on social media. It’s fine if you think I’m crazy. While people get waisted and high to numb their feelings, no that’s not crazy. But a girl with a heart that actually cares and is facing the worst news of her life trying to hold on to anything that makes her feel alright. THAT’S CRAZY. Let me numb my feelings so I can fit in, sike. I feel so lost and no one would know. Leave me alone but don’t leave me alone because when I’m alone I’m in danger. I know I’m not the only one that knows how this feels. ❤️ #keeponkeepingon
Archangel Jeremiel helps with visions of the future.
I met an incredible young man today, a year ago @jontystriker
was shot in a home invasion and is now confined to a wheelchair, yet he still competes in #armwrestling
, not just from his chair, but also standing, against able bodied wrestlers. Jonty, you inspire me to do better and I am convinced you have so much to share with others in this world. #amazed #keeponkeepingon #beyourbest #keepwinning @wheelwod