Im giggly. Im happy. Im greatful and its happening.
I promised my trainer who works with me for the exchange of my massage skills which sounds so randomly weird but Marty and Vic have been 2 of my man life savers.
It happened. We scaled in. I changed things at home Keto wise and got those lipids checked against inflammation and microbiome.
Im a Butter free
Dairy free hypocrite because usually someone will have a go if your dairy free but eat the cow.
I cut the oils and changed the oils.
I am celebrating today.
When Marty says look (usually I can't) at the scales something big has happened.
He asked me why I dont #girlswholift
You lift people Carrie.
You make the best food in Adelaide and the world should interview you.
That small time girl in Adelaide who studied off her own back. On the floors of hospitals while my girl slept.
Borrowed laptops from nurses.
Wellness for Chloe. Changes for me. Different followers have taught me alot.
Last 4 wks I gained weight.
I fell apart with fear. My emotions went to shit. So there went my guthealth. My emotional well being.
I rang Marty. Cant gym. Too scared!
I could literallyfeel his disappointment badly.
Muscle weights more than fat.
FEAR FEAR FEAR.
Marty....when I was big I was abused for it.
Get into the gym says M.
I spoke to him and another trainer who is also #domesticviolence
and now I vibe with people who lift weights and people who lift eachother.
I didn't do this with support in person.
I was a book hugger and a researcher.
When Drs failed me I was determined as fuck to never have my girl walk that line.
What did I see. - 5kgs. So....Im still a curvy and loving it butt and legs size 14 to 16.
So. Its not always about numbers.
They fluctuate daily
I want to see now where I can reach and I have a craving for those you can't do it things.
If someone you totally adore tells you relentlessy you cant, you wont, your not to be looked at, you won't succeed.
They dont love themselves.
He is right. The world should meet Carrie
I read about genes. I read about nutrition. I had already done Anat and Phys and Biology and Skin. I know more about skin than ever. Biohacking Autoimmune skinside. Yesss 👊