Sight | Jessie Greengrass
"[As I] sat on the bus's upper deck, my forehead resting on the window's sweating glass, I would hold my hands, momentarily, across my stomach, and feel it for what it was, for me: a kind of promise I must strive to keep, the commitment to make myself the best mother I could to make up for having made myself one at all."
Sight is a novel that at it's core investigates what an unknowable and terrifying experience motherhood can be. The unnamed narrator sets forth to impart the ways in which she has tried, in earnest and desperately, to peel back layers which may reveal some key to being the best mother she can be to the child she feels is at once a stranger and a being whose entire history she claims to know with absolutely clarity.
What makes this novel so compelling are the excavations into the parallels of experience, the inherited truths and confusions shared between herself, her mother, and psychoanalyst grandmother. This nebulous figure of her gran is the central point from which many threads are spun and arguments made. The narrator seeks to understand the her fears through literal scientific means, analyzing the work of Wilhem Röntgen (who discover the X-ray), Freud and his psychoanalyst work with his daughter Anna, and John Hunter's anatomical experiments on pregnant women.
The question of sight, of literally seeing all there is behind the masks of our outward appearances, is haunting to the narrator, who seeks to understand whether by being omniscient of every layer, the physical and mental, she can impart to her child, like a gift in a box, that which was not given to her: happiness, certainty, security.
#bibliophile #igreads #bookaddict #booknerd #booked #bookstagram #bookstagramfeature #bookishfeature #instabooks #igreads #booksofig #instareads #readersofinstagram #read #reading #leisure #book #books #allthebooks #bookish #booklover #booklove #love #readbyrodkelly #bookrecommendation #bookaholic #readingisfundamental #alwaysreading #reader #bookphotography