I made this :3
•Warning: This mentions ED and self-harm if there is anything else tell me, sorry if you don't like venty stuff•
Dysphoria has always been a really difficult thing for me, at first it was something that was confusing for me and just something I didn't want or know how to talk about. So for most of my childhood from 6 years old to around 12, I didn't tell anyone about how I was feeling. I already had and still, have a stressful homelife so I figured that it be easier if I just stayed quiet about it until it just passed and it never did.
During around the ages of 11 and 12, I had already had started to feel depressed and things at that point. With gender dysphoria, the places I felt and still feel the most dysphoric about is my chest, my hair and the feminine parts of my face. It started to get to a point where my chest and feminine parts were all I could think about, like how my chest lumps looked out of place or how they would rest on my arms and ribs like rolls of fat.
Later on, became one of the main reasons why I had/still have an ED (Eating disorder, im trying to recover) and other things. But this morning, for the first time is a while I had a wave of dysphoria to the point where I tried to double bind, ended up leaving bruises than to a panic attack and ended up throwing up multiple times. And conclusion being that my chest has probably gotten bigger I need a new binder that I have no money for... Its okay tho, I'm doing better now but I hope this wave dies down a bit. Also sorry if you were triggered in any way, hope everyone has a nice day/night, also really anxious to post this but fuck it~Theo💫
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