Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. A day that honours the mothers and fathers who have lost their babies too soon but also a day to celebrate our babies' lives.
This raw, unquenchable pain that is too deep for words is unfortunately the language of pain and loss that is shared by so many around the world. But every life should be celebrated.
I have lost 2 babies through miscarriage - one at 11 weeks and another at 19 weeks gestation. And more recently, I lost my youngest baby girl at 39 days.
It's been 2 months since my precious Lucy-Rose passed away and everyday my heart aches for her. I long to hold her, cuddle her, kiss her, sing to her, to feel her skin on mine, see her smile when I say her name, to just have her with me and to be in her presence. Death on earth feels awfully permanent... I miss my baby girl so much... Everyday it feels as if there's a part of me that is missing. The pain of losing her is still so alive in my heart... I wish there was light at the end of this endless tunnel of loss that I could look forward to... Today I celebrate her life. I celebrate December 6, 2017 when I found out I was pregnant. I celebrate being pregnant with her for 34 weeks + 1 day. I celebrate the day she was born. I celebrate that she defied expectations despite her trisomy 13 diagnosis after she was born. I celebrate every moment we spent with her. I celebrate the hours I got to hold her and sing to her. I celebrate the hundreds of smiles she gave us when we told her we loved her. I celebrate her learning to kiss back. I celebrate her rolling over to see her siblings. I celebrate everytime she cried to communicate her needs. I celebrate all the times I got to bathe her. I celebrate every wiggle, every turn, everytime she opened her eyes.
Today, I celebrate the love she filled us with and the love we gave to her. A life lived with deep love filling the hearts of those around us, is a life well lived.
I love you forever, my beautiful Lucy-Rose.
My husband @tomkmiec
and I will forever be grateful for the love and support we received.
Thank you @lindsay_skeans
for capturing this precious moment when Lucy-Rose kissed me back.