❌⚠️ I’ve always had a perfectionist persona. The other day, I grew two sore cysts on my right cheek and I was so upset about it 😥(you’d think after suffering from severe cystic acne, having one pimple would be fine but nope :/) 30 minutes before Oz Tag, I rushed over to my makeup table and quickly grabbed my concealer to cover it up. I didn’t want anyone to focus on my red spots… then I thought… HOLD UP, what the hell am I doing? 😠It’s just some pimples. Why the on earth would I wear makeup to a sport’s game? It’d just make it worse in the long run. It took a little pep talk but this allowed me to pull myself out of that dangerous hole of needing to look perfect all the time. ☁️When I was 14, I cried when I was only 5% away from the perfect mark. When I was 16, I got so frustrated that I couldn’t understand chemistry and hated myself for being so ‘dumb’. When I was 18, I had a nervous breakdown when I failed my car licence. My need to be perfect actually drove me insane, it pushed me to go above and beyond to do everything all at once and pressured me to this ‘amazing’ person when really, I was a complete utter mess😥. Operating in perfection mode is so exhausting. And for me, it forms a vicious cycle of thinking... thinking I'm not good enough.. my work isn’t good enough, my skin isn’t good enough… everything sucks. These thoughts caused me to self destruct where I started to believe in my own negativity so I would shut down. When you are striving for perfection, your brain literally processes that as a genuinely stressful situation.
But this must stop ❌❌⚠️We are allowed to make mistakes, we are allowed to have messy hair and blemishes on our faces. Switch to more positive self talk, stop self-blame and live life a little ❤️It’s definitely a working progress but I hope you guys join me and realise we are all perfectly imperfect.
XOXO Love you all, your gal
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