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These pics are 10 years apart and I not only look very different but I also think and feel very different. In both of the pics I am laughing but in one of them I am chronically unhappy and the most deeply depressed that I had or have ever been, a depression that went on for almost 2 years. One photo was before the bipolar2 diagnoses and the other 10 years living with it. I felt such self loathing I could barely look at myself in the mirror and even looking at the photo on the left now makes me feel like I want to cry and I feel the dreaded lump in my throat. Some will not understand how I could possibly be happier now, being so much heavier but I am! Looks can be deceiving. I made a decision a few years ago that I was no longer going to be at war with myself and I was going to learn to love myself as I am, in this moment. I wanted to be a role model for my girls and I also wanted to start practicing what I preached, about not judging people on their exterior, an exterior that ultimately withers and ages for all of us, but to get to know a persons spirit and soul because that’s where the true beauty lies. This may seem like a backwards before and after photo to some but for me it represents how far I’ve come mentally, emotionally and spiritually and for that I am proud ❤️
Just learnt to play “Lovesong” by The Cure on the uke 💜
Day 7 of Create everyday. I never seem to be able to get the proportions of the facial features right in my portrait sketches and usually I am ok with that but this drawing looks more like another famous face than the one I was sketching, it isn’t finished but let me know who you think it is so i can see if I am right?
Day 4 Create everyday, a recording of the Lizettes 😏 the new year started off a bit rough, I woke up feeling very depressed and that spiralled into a panic that is was the beginning of something and I was headed for a place I dont want to visit again if I can avoid it. So I was forced to make some decisions around my self care, I have been pushing myself beyond acceptable limits. It’s time for me to start getting more rest, drinking less alcohol 😳 and focusing on what’s best for me and one of the top things is creativity. So Ive introverted myself within my own world and just tried to focus on creating and today I woke up feeling the most normal and at peace that I have in over a week.
Day 3 Create everyday, drawing a cartoon ladybird-butterfly 💜
Day 2 Create everyday, work on the comedy script I’ve already started 💜
Day 1 create every day! Writing notes for script ideas 💜
This is and probably will always be my greatest challenge. I am not ok atm and I saying this publicly in text, behind a screen because I still struggle to say it out loud, to open my mouth and form the words. This time of year is tough collectively but this year has been one of the toughest yet. I’ve accepted that I live with a chronic mental illness and that I will need to manage it for the rest of my life, but sometimes my humanness takes over and I start living a little bit too recklessly or I try to battle the stresses alone and little by little the darkness creeps in through the cracks. I can’t think rationally, my inner critic is tearing me down at every turn and all I want to do is hide in my bed, under the covers. I have ignored the signs and tried to keep pushing on but it’s caught up with me. I have become experienced in working through the irritability, the anxiety, the self loathing and the darkest thoughts of ending it all but the black dog has brought me down. A reminder that I must stay forever diligent to looking after myself and being kind and speak out when I am not ok ...
Start over this year and every year, never stop searching for your bliss, never stop learning and growing 💜
Create everyday of December... today’s self expression session at the beach 🏖
Decided to get out of the house and try and do some writing at the beach, so far so good and I’m loving the fact that my car is quite roomy ☀️
Today’s ‘create everyday’ efforts, a colour portrait of Nina Simone 💜
Day 24 of Create everyday is a Christmas Message from my family to yours! Isabelle can hardly contain her excitement 😂💜
Soooo, I might’ve got a new toy in the mail today 😱 but it is a Banjolele, so a little bit different and it’s only a cheaply just so I could see what they’re like 😳😂
Going through a very old notebook for inspiration and came across this piece that I can’t quite figure out, what it’s about, what kind of piece of writing it was intended for 🤔
Today’s instalment is an installation piece I like to call “I have no room for my addiction” 💜
Life is poetry 💜
Creativity challenge catch up, Christmas crafts continue 🎁 Today’s episode is brought to you by the letter C 😳😂
Catch up day of the creativity challenge. Some experimenting I’ve been doing in Ableton Live 💜
I’m behind again, but today, day 20 is crafting. I like to try every year to make some of my Christmas presents 🎁
Another catch-up piece for Create everyday of December. Hanging on 💜
I’m never really alone when i’ve got my little chocolate crew 😍
One of the catch-up days for Creating everyday of December, another song I’ve been working on writing this week 💜
Day 16: Create everyday of December. I have missed a few days so I will do a catch up but I have been creating everyday just haven’t documented it. This is a song I’ve been working on over the last four days 💜
Day 12- Create everyday of December. Painting with body paint a practice of the tattoo I am planning in situation (but upside down) and discovered a way to paint on the couch with minimal mess 😳😂
Day 8 & 9 of Create everyday of December a quick portrait sketch and an edited video of the process. It took me about 10 minutes to draw the portrait but considerably longer to edit the video down to an acceptable length.
Day 6 of the Create everyday of December challenge is the its been 39 degrees today and I’ve been at the beach and am now feeling super lazy creation 😳😂
Truth 🙌🏻
Create everyday of December catch up piece number three. Combining words and images.
Day 5 of Create everyday of December. The black line represent the programming that has been imposed on me by society and the red lines represent my true nature, my thoughts, my feelings, my true wants and drives.
I missed yesterday’s post and I had one to make up for the first of December, so today I will post three pieces to catch up. Create everyday of December. A piece of free flow writing.
Sometimes the words you needs to see to remind you of your purpose fall in front of you just at the right time 💙
Day two of ‘create everyday’ for December, a piece of writing I am going to turn into a song💜
My creativity has been way down in the last few weeks, so I’m going to set my self the create everyday challenge for the month of December to try an build some momentum back up.
Some days it’s harder than others and unfortunately it’s those closest to me that receive the least but it is a good mantra to live by 💜 #wisewords #quote #lizlanestudio #bekind #kindnessmatters #kindness
Been learning a new song on request from a friend 😁 still got a little ways to go 💜 #lizlanestudio #ukulelecover #ukulelegirl #singinggirl #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #create #selfexpression #poetlife #lifeispoetry #adelaideartist
Submitted my last assignment for the year for uni and I’m halfway through my degree. It’s something to be happy about 💛 #lizlanestudio #mediastudent #unibreak #summerholidays #happygirl #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #selfexpression #poetlife #lifeispoetry #adelaideartist
It’s 5:36am and I’ve been at uni working on this since 9pm and I’m not even halfway there. I feel like I’m going mad with all the noises and voices go off around me 🤪 #sonicarts #sonicnarrative #soundart #spatialstudio #lizlanestudio #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #create #adelaideartist #poetlife #lifeispoetry
My beauty arrived ❤️Now I just need to get my last two assessments for uni out of the way and I can give number 18 my undivided attention 😍 #lizlanestudio #ukulelecover #ukulele #ukulelegirl #electricukulele #electricuke #custommade #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #create
It’s been hard work and I’ve felt like pulling my hair out at times but having over 20 puppies to care for for the first 6 weeks of their lives has been one of the best experiences of my life. This was what my childhood dreams were made of them and I love these chocolate velvet bundles and I don’t want them to leave ❤️ #choclabpuppies #chocolatelab #chocolatelab #lizlanestudio #puppies #labradorpuppies #mylife #myheart #lifeispoetry #realloce
Practice continues in Labrador Lounge, but lucky for Liz the residents aren’t paying any attention so they don’t notice all her mistakes as she tries to learn a new song 😳😂 #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #choclabpuppies #chocolatelab #ukulele #ukulelegirl #ukulelecover #poetlife #lifeispoetry
So now I must don hardware like I’m spray painting or fumigating the house when I sleep but it’s actually to treat my severe sleep apnea in which I stop breathing in my sleep an average of 35 times an hour 😳 #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #sleep #sleepapnea #myworld
Laylee is extra clingy at the moment, I think she is really missing Uki too 😢🦋 #myworld #myheart #gingercat #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #poetlife #lifeispoetry
Got my Goth White foundation today so I had a little play with it 💜 #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #lifeispoetry #goth #gothwhite
My initials for my first and two middle names spell ELM, I love elm trees, trees are a meaningful symbol for me and Sylvia is my poetic icon 💜 #sylviaplath #confessionalpoet #poetlife #lifeispoetry #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #adelaideartist #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #elmtree #poeticicon
Some days I need to remember that I am Good Enough as well as not “Too Much” and some days I need to remind myself on repeat 💜 #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #adelaideartist #poetlife #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #lifeispoetry #goodenough #mentalhealth
An illustration sketched for a poem I’d written and now I am planning to use the poem and this illustration to create a digital narrative. Combining art forms is one of my favourite things 💜 #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #adelaideartist #lifeispoetry #poetlife #sketch #createeveryday
Sketches for a tattoo I want to get on my thigh, a pinup like alter ego, a reminder of the woman I aspire to be, confident, comfortable in my own skin, courageous and compassionate 💜 #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #poetlife #pinuptattoo
Just when I think I’ve taken the cutest photos possible they pull this pose out 😍#chocolatelab #larbradorpuppies #myworld #myheart #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #choclabpuppies
I went at my hair like Edward Scissor hands goes at topiary. I diy cut and coloured it attempting an asymmetrical inverted bob, it looks ok in its natural tousled state but it will be interesting to see how it looks when I straighten it 😳 #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression #diyhaircut #girlshaircut #lifeispoetry
Emergency All around is Constant chatter and constant natter We sit in silence In Gran’s stark cubicle And wait Watching the women in their teal pyjamas And running shoes And the men in tailored slacks and shiny black lace ups Gran, with her eye swollen like a ripened plum Beep beep beep Beats per minute My grans heart beats Irregular My grans heart beats too much We watch the clock Tick tick tick The nurse checks grans stats But her heart rate can’t be caught The heating is cranked To keep the elderly warm With their Paper thin skin. I have spent too many hours in hospital rooms this year Staring the inevitable in the eye And watching my favourites Succumb to the way of all things 🦋 #poetry #poetlife #lifeispoetry #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression
I wrote this poem a few years ago when my gran was admitted into hospital after breaking her wrist. Tonight Margit, my gran has been admitted into hospital again for some tests due to a swollen eye and irregular heart beats. For Margit with all my love 💜 #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression #familyalways #poetlife #lifeispoetry #iamnotanisland
So, I’ve just finished writing/constructing my multimedia essay for Digital Storytelling and a video abstract had to be embedded at the start. It took me way too many tales to try and get it right but here is one of the early ones before I realised the puppies were making way too much noise 😏 #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #sounddesign #digitalstorytelling #sonicarts #mediastudent #multimediaessay #poetlife #lifeispoetry #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression
Although it is a question we should be asking one another everyday, today is the day we are reminded. As someone who lives with a chronic mental health condition and as someone who has stood too close to the edge and has even attempted to jump off, just the simple act of being asked ‘R U OK?’ can be enough to break the spell. That seemingly small acknowledgment can be a reminder that we are not alone and when we are reminded we are not alone we are reminded we have people in our lives that we care about and we don’t want to leave behind. This is more than a day it is a reminder to keep connecting with the people we love for the next year and beyond. R U OK? 💜 #ruok #ruokday #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #mentalhealth #suicideawareness #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression #poetlife #lifeispoetry #iamnotanisland #confessionalpoet #poetry
Study is not going smoothly atm, found out one on my major assignments is due on Friday, when I thought it was due on the 28th, have done nothing and now my internet seems to have gone M.I.A and I won’t even mention the level of distraction the 22 puppies in my lounge room are causing 😳 #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #ukulele #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #study #studentlife
Some old wounds that I thought had healed have been opened up over the last couple of days and with it the realisation that someone who had once been very close to me was actually responsible for inflicting the cuts. This poem contains opinions I was subjected to and although I am not young any more and neither are my children apparently some of these opinions are still firmly held onto 😕 #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #poetlife #iamnotanisland #lifeispoetry #poetry #confessionalpoet
This is a dangerous device for those who have deadlines or who need to avoid time wasting and procrastinating 😱💜 #choclabpuppy #choclatelab #chocolatelabradorpuppy #labrador #labpuppy #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression
One of my babies, babies 😍 Not a bad way to spend a Saturday night, a night in having tiny Labrador cuddles! #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #labradorpuppy #choclab #chocolatelabradorpuppy #choclabpup #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression
I used to have this attitude when ever I was confronted with something that made me feel anxious or uncomfortable, I’d tell myself “you’ve just got to get through” now anxiety and feeling uncomfortable are very present emotional states for me , so I realised one day I was doing myself a disservice by trying to just grin and bare a lot of experiences. I decided to try to change my attitude and be present and enjoy as much of it as I could, try to remember why I’ve put myself in that position and the things I like about it. So Yesterday at #LoveLocalFleurieu that is what I tried to do 💜 #lizlanestudio @project_work_life @oliverstaranga #takethechance #adelaideartist #expressyourself #ukulele #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart
And then there was the time that I had an art exhibition with four generations of related women 💜 #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #familyways #generationsofcreation #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #selfexpression
Been going through old stuff looking for memories for my Love Local Fleurieu presentation I’ve come across some great old photos, this is one from Art School during the final year 💜 #adelaideartist #lizlanestudio #expressyourself #selfexpression #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart
Had my first go in the Spatial Studio at uni tonight. I had to get things up and running, isolate the sound and make sure I can route it to the appropriate speaker and make some terrible sounds with nothing but a sine tone 🙉 #myworld #myheart #makemusic #makeart #lizlanestudio #adelaideartist #expressyourself #ukulele #ukulelegirl #sonicarts #selfexpression #poetlife #lifeispoetry
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