This day 4 years back!!!!! Yup you see a super tired one month old first time momma and an equally tired clueless baby who for so long was in a quiet dark home, full of all facilities, used to get food without any effort and would swim around leisurely!!! Being a mom for the first time does take a toll on both the mom and the lil one. It’s a new journey all together, there is so much to explore. This one here used to cry non stop for about 40 initial days and I tried it all.
We used to go to the doctor daily and he would say she’s perfectly fine. Someone told me to go out in the night and ask Goddess to please calm the baby down and will u believe it, I did do that!!!😳😳😳 It’s only later I realised that she needed to be comforted, needed to be fed properly and also needed a happy mumma.
I did slip into postpartum depression and would keep crying all the time. Would not sleep through the night and won’t do anything.. I suddenly started to pity myself and this self pity did more harm. I started to dislike everything and felt that there was no one who understands me, no one who loves me and no one who takes care of me.
I delivered at my in law’s place and Mr Husband was away for work and would come only on weekends and I would feel that there is so much that I want to tell him but I wouldn’t.. It’s only after 45 days when I went to my mom’s place, a friend of my mom and also a gynaecologist looked at me and said what’s wrong with you?? It was only a small operation and you are all well now, why have u ties up yourself like a critically ill person?? Dress up, express your feed and go out, start mild exercising, sleep well, leave the child away for a bit everyday. It’s only a child birth and not the end of the world..... And it’s then that I realised that I was not physically ill but it was mental. I changed and it was visible, and surprisingly there was a happy child too.
So new momma’s, yes it’s tiring and it’s confusing and it takes a lot but there’s more to it, there’s YOU who needs your attention... .
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