*i feel so #grateful
right now. Drained and exhausted but #VALIDATED
you see... my entire #life
i have been #comparing
myself to others and #wondering
why i seemed to be so different. so messed up. unstable. emotionally crazy. you name it.
and now i finally have the undeniable #grace
i needed. for myself.
the grace to accept my life experiences and my #experience
of life as completely my own. and im ok.
to look in the mirror and say its ok, you CAN change. (your behaviour.)
my personality disorder is NOT me. & neither is my #mentalillness
i CAN learn to be more stable and SEE THE WORLD FROM A MORE #ACCURATE #PERSPECTIVE
AND NOT THROUGH THE #DEVASTATING
LENSE I HAVE BEEN LOOKING THROUGH FOR SO SO LONG...
there is help for me and there is help for anyone with #bpd
fact is that it is not all bad... another is that people #SUFFERING
from bpd usually get better as they get older... which makes sense - your perspective tends to shift naturally as you mature...
also if you dont know what #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
is or why some people end up with it, please please take a moment to google the truth.
WE ARE NOT (inward/covert) #NARCISSISTS
i can *guarantee* there is a massive #difference
and that is that the *narc* does not feel ANY #empathy
what.so.ever.... whereas bpds may show some #narc #behaviour
(its a spectrum) i think we are mostly empaths... and i am definitely a highly sensitive person too boot. hsp woohoo.
too while your at it. actually i found youtube extremely helpful in understanding what all this was... and that i was also suffering from severe narcissistic abuse...
im referring to the relationship with my narc ex... the one that basically put me into teen challenge... if u know what i mean. unfortunately that shell of a human being (im not capable of believing he has a soul yet)... wreaked extreme havoc on my emotional health for years and has hurt my marriage... but thankfully God sees it all. HE IS BIGGER THAN ALL OF THIS.
also i wonder if other people from my past werent narcs -
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