Real talk. Today my thoughts were erratic. There were moments I wasn’t in control whatsoever. I am working at trying to notice my body triggers again, to notice my thoughts before they are too far gone, to be present and practice mindfulness.
Today I was cruel to myself in my thoughts. I was frustrated that I wasn’t where I want to be. I was upset and wanted to give up. I didn’t know how to pull myself out of the spiralling chaos of my mind.
I had a few clients this morning and the second I got home I was back in sweatpants & a bunny hug (hoodie, whatever, I grew up in sask 😂) I barely moved after I got home today. My body wasn’t my best friend today, or so I thought. But in reality I needed to stop. I needed a breather. I needed to let myself have a day like this. I needed to be okay with myself having a night to just sit with myself. To sit and not feel guilt or frustration towards myself.
This journey is tougher some days, and I definitely need to tell myself over and over and over that some things take time. I take time. If I want to exist in a world where I am content with myself I have to love my bad days too. My tough days don’t define me, they are merely one part of me. I said it earlier, resilience is learned in practice not just in theory. Every day I make a choice to take care of myself and love these parts, not avoiding them and feeling guilty for not having energy, I am building my resilience.
It’s ok to not be ok sometimes. It’s ok to give yourself what you need. For me that looks different than for you. But remember, it’s ok to take time. Don’t rush the layers to the masterpiece that you are!
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Willem de Kooning
Willem de Kooning (1904-1997) was a Dutch American contemporary master and the leading artist of #AbstractExpressionism
, an American movement strongly influenced by European Surrealist notions of automatism and free expression. De Kooning did not use preliminary studies but painted directly on the support, manipulating pigment in vigorous, uninhibited gestures, expressing his subjective apprehensions of the material world in both figurative and abstract compositions. During the late fifties he temporarily abandoned the depiction of the human figure, which had preoccupied him since the beginning of his career, to evoke parkway and urban landscapes in abstract terms.
The Police Gazette is a landscape painted on canvas using abstract elements. It was this painting that promoted Willem de Kooning amongst the most important abstract painters of the modern world. 🔻willem-de-kooning.org🔺
Ardan Ozmenoglu is a Turkish contemporary artist who works in a wide range of mediums including large-scale 3D glass sculptures, works on Post-It notes and neon lighting.
Ozmenoglu adheres hundreds of post-it notes to her canvases and then silk-screens colorful, pop-inspired imagery on top to create a three-dimensional surface. This singular composition made out of a multitude of similar parts lends the work a formal variety and literal depth. After the canvas undergoes the printing process, each post-it note can behave differently. Some can lay completely flat, while others can curl up and reveal their true colors peaking out from under the overlaid images.
Her work challenges the viewer to reconsider familiar images, products and ideas. She uses ubiquitous items, Post-It notes, to create pieces of art that unite seemingly opposing ideas: the past and the present, art history and contemporary art trends, creativity and consumerism, repetition and individuality, the whole and the fragmented. She unites the centuries old practice of printing with modern colors, glitters, paper and images. Her art forces the viewer to consider everyday objects and ideas in a different light. The result is anything but predictable.