Long Post Warning but since I don't blog, here it is.
When I am struggling with my mental health I fixate on songs as a way to cope but I always come back to Blue October. I have listened to them since back in 2003 when I first heard Calling You on the radio. Since then they have been the soundtrack to my life. Every album seemed perfectly fit for what I was going through at that time in my life. I heard Hate Me shortly after my first suicide attempt. It said exactly how I felt and I fell in love with the band even more. The End was the only thing that came close to putting the anger I had towards the man who raped me into words. Any Man In America came out right around the time my relationship with my parents really started to fall apart and I would listen to Worry List on repeat. Bleed Out was played a lot during my separation from my ex and when the dust settled I shifted to Fear. Home was released right as I was finding a true family and support system, not just friends, for the first time in my life. I finally felt like I had found a home with my husband. I was getting to a place where I felt like I deserved to be happy.
But days like today where it is a struggle to be happy, because Bi-Polar disorder is a bitch, I go back to the first album I heard and listen to A Quiet Mind and try to remind myself that I'm not at a stage where I can't seem handle my own.
Thank You Morning Show 7 Australia TV for sharing Emma Watson's story about her is the first donor who gave 💶💷 1 million to Equality and Justice Fund and sharing Emma's Video about TIMES UP (Sexual Harassment) and she not able to attend, BAFTA yesterday because, "She is working somewhere else" 📺📻🎥📽👏🏻🙏🏻💛👍🏻👌🏻 @morningshowon7#morningshowon7@emmawatson#emmawatson#TimesUp#metoo ❤️😍😘😀😬😁😃😄😆😉😏👍🏻👌🏻🙌🏻🤘🏽✌🏻️👋🏻
2 minutes ago002
Listening to @triple_j in the car and had to turn it off. I wish I had the strength to listen to their stories but at this point I can’t. It hurts. It hurts my heart, it hurts my soul. More and more, as the years go on, it seems to hurt more not less. As I try and grasp a greater understanding but I only find more holes in my own reasoning. One day I might share some of my stories. But not today
3 minutes ago10
not okay!!!!!! there is such a large double standard, still, between the genders. from very early on, children are taught that it’s the girls responsibility to cover herself up and make herself “presentable” for public, but men/boys r perfectly welcome to look at girls. boys should just not look at girls inappropriately. bi/pan/lesbian girls do it without (in most circumstances) assaulting/ogling women.
4 minutes ago12
Second week of Yoga down and dusted; tonight we focused on arms, and our breathing. My arms are probably my biggest insecurity, so it was really good working these babies out tonight.
I've found myself looking forward to these #payingitforward Yoga sessions in the country; the whole concept is just so fulfilling and gratifying. From the smell of country air, the quiet hum in the hall, to the sense of whanaungatanga bring us all together.
It's awkward af to take photos in the hall as I feel a little guilty bringing technology into such a peaceful room; so here's a candid zen moment in the garden before the crickets scared me 😅
Feeling relaxed and at peace this evening with an overwhelming sense of contentment.
나는 특정 인상에 퉁퉁한 중년남성은 본능이 알아서 피하고 꺼린다
밖을 다니다 종종 소름이 끼칠때도있다
수치스러워서 엄마에겐 말하지못했다
울면서 들어간날 돈을 뺏겼다고 거짓말을 했다
10살 11살 20살
그렇게 그렇게 겨우 정말 친한 친구 몇몇에게 얘기하면 너도 나도 그런경험들이 있다 게다가 이렇게 우후죽순으로 일들이 터지는걸 보면 신기할 따름
제발 그래도 멀쩡한 사람이 더 많았으면 싶다
인간같지도 않은 것들은 무마취 거세라도 시켜라
일주일 동안 마음이 쓰라렸다.
나는 그들의 책을 통해 연극을 배웠다.
그들은 내가 진심으로 존경하는 사람이었고
나의 연기적 가치관의 뿌리라고 할 수 있었던 사람들이었다. 그래서 더 아팠다.
기사와 인터뷰들을 읽으며,
피해자들이 쓴 글들을 읽으며,
분노와 참담함이 나를 삼켰지만
동시에 스스로를 돌이켜보게 되었다.
내가 했던 말들이 잘못되었던 적은 단 한 번도 없었나?
나는 단 한 번도 침묵하거나, 방관하거나, 외면했던 적이 없었나?
난 그저 고개를 숙일 뿐이다. 부끄럽다.
그래서 나는 다짐한다.
나는 성희롱, 성추행, 성폭력에 대한 인식을 재정비하고 (너무도 당연하지만) 나 자신의 언행에 책임을 지기 위해 노력할 것이다.
나는 앞으로 이와 같은 일을 겪거나 목격했을 경우 회피하거나 침묵하지 않기 위해 노력할 것이다.
나는 함께할 것이다. 누군가가 나를 필요로 한다면 애쓸 것이며, 같이 눈물 흘릴 것이다. 내 어깨를 빌려줄 것이다.
내가 가고 싶어하는 그 곳이
내가 살고 싶어하는 그 곳이
이미 그렇게 되어가고 있는 것 같지만...🙏🏻
RepostBy @lainielovedalby : "Me too. I still remember. The trauma of it never quite goes away. Instead, it gets trapped in our cells and nervous systems, weighing us down and compromising our ability to show up for our sacred work in the world and those who need us most. ***
I've spent years in deep healing work trying to clear the violence inflicted upon my body by others, and the violence that I eventually internalized and turned against myself. I was able to come out on the other side. I'm still alive. I have many beloveds who sadly aren't, however. They never made it back after their dignity and humanity was stolen and their souls were crushed by their perpetrators.
Our body is a portal to our power, not a tool to be used or abused for our continued oppression. I'm DONE with the overt and covert violence against women. ***
#enoughisenough#metoo#standup#speaktruthtopower#riseup#resister#bebrave#womenempowerment#instagood#nomoreviolence#nomoreviolenceagainstwomen#stoptheviolence " (via #InstaRepost@EasyRepost )
#Repost@corpsman (@get_repost )
We began as a violent nation... it remains so. colonization began in the 16th century. The United States emerged from the thirteen British colonies established along the East Coast. Numerous disputes between Great Britain and the colonies following the French and Indian War led to the American Revolution, which began in 1775, and the subsequent Declaration of Independence in 1776. The war ended in 1783 with the United States becoming the first country to gain independence from a European power. The current constitution was adopted in 1788, with the first ten amendments, collectively named the Bill of Rights, being ratified in 1791 to guarantee many fundamental civil liberties. #stayfrostydoc#metoo#timesup#rimjob#staywokefam
21 minutes ago002
예술이라는 이름 하에 거행되어 오던 부조리를 끊으려는 움직임이 시작되고 있다.
공개사과와 연희단 해체라는 얕은 수로 범죄사실들을 은폐하고 2차가해를 하고 있는 저들이 쉽게 숨을 수 없도록, 공연계의 자정하려는 움직임이 계속될 수 있도록 청원 부탁드려요.
제 프로필에도 사이트 링크 걸어놓았습니다!
공연계 연극계 #metoo#withyou
In need of a couple more creatives who’d be interested in involving / submitting / creating pieces & work revolving SELF ✨includes photography, embroidery, illustration, painting, drawing, poetry, written etc etc 💛💛💛 also featuring this beautiful gal who has been so incredible during this whole project 🌱 love you @grandma_unis