Hey guys, I think I might take a break from this Instagram account. What do you think?
I feel like right now it's just too much for me and that everything I post is horribly negative and does not benefit any of my followers or myself.. I'm just a cycle of depression and its awful. I hope to one day have a recovery account that isn't all negative... Because really? What is recovery when I am just becoming more and more depressed? I think the main focus of recovery is to find happiness and right now, I am far from that. Another thing is that, I think taking photos and posting every meal is making it even more difficult for myself because I compare myself to others. I hope that one day I can have an account that benefits others and also myself. Lately I have been EXTREMELY self centered through the things I have been doing, and that's something I need to change. I've been a drag to my friends, I've hurt them, I've hurt my family, especially my mom, and I've really hurt my ex (yes my ex), I've pushed him so far away. I still have feelings for him, heck maybe I still even love him.. But all of my depression has been getting in the way of that. How are we supposed to be together if we can't even be alone with ourselves? So I think I'm going to take a break from this account so that I can give myself a chance to heal and focus on school work, friends, family, helping others, etc. Thank you to everyone who has supported me through this journey, I appreciate it so much and I hope to one day help others like you guys! See you soon! Goodbye for now ❤🌟 #ednos #bodyimage #hate #ed #edrecovery #depression #mentalilleness #anamia #hardlife #sad #fat #weight #eatingdisorder #weightloss #selfconscious #control #anxiety #bingeeatingdisorder #edstruggles