Anytime i make this...my mind tends to ease and my belly is grateful. Simple white rice and soft fried egg. My mama used to make this for me. No special reason. But it forever brings her home. What I wouldn’t give for a conversation and a hug. #missmymama #lovemymama #simplerecipes #heartfood
Feeling so grateful this Monday because I just received my fingerprint ring from @legacytouch
I cried internally as I opened the box because the ring was just so beautiful, like my mom. It feels as if she's holding my hand tightly, the way I used to cling onto her whenever I got the chance.
There's no getting over the loss of a loved one this close, there's only moving forward and evolving from the pain.
I remember wanting to punch something over and over again, losing the true me, and crying till my lungs gave out from all the sorry messages that started rolling in. A couple days later I realized that if I had punched something repeatedly, continued losing myself, and crying till there were no more tears left to cry, it wouldn't have brought my mom back. And it wouldn't make her any happier to see me in a pool of my own tears if she had been watching over me at that time. That was when I knew that there was one thing I could do instead: keep her spirit alive in any and every way I possibly can!
This ring cannot replace my mom, but it's a close second. Inscription says, "Everything (I do)^2 4U Ma." ❤
Hello☎️ Pwede po ba ke Mama?
Pakisabi si Lhen po ito anak nia 😊
Sana me ganun yung kpag namimiss mo yung mahal mo sa buhay na lumisan sa mundong ito eh maari pa din makausap...😌
1 week shy of having to say goodbye to my Mama 2 years ago, my best friend, my world, my everything. Not a day goes by where i don’t thing about you. I see your signs you signal to me letting me know that you are still with me, I can feel you watching over my shoulder and guiding me in the right direction. I know you would be proud of me and everything that I’ve accomplished in life. I’ve learned from the best, YOU! I remember this picture like it was yesterday. My girls were by my side though the whole thing. My mom treated and loved them like her own. I’m beyond thankful and blessed AF 🖤 #missmymama #mamabear #mamad #besties #sisters #regulators #guardianangel #2years
As y’all know, of late I’ve been extra tender with the mom grief. Sometimes I can explain why...plenty of times I can’t. It just ‘is’. Because that’s the way grief goes. Lately, I’ve been missing her more. Not just in an overall ‘general grief of missing her’ sort of way. But in actual concrete missing her sorts of ways...being able to talk to her about the hard things that are going on in my life right now, and being able to share with her the good things happening, getting her advice, asking her if this sweater looks ok, calling her for a recipe, that sort of thing.
The last few days I feel like I’ve been missing her more, and I just haven’t been able to pinpoint why...and that’s the thing with grief, there isn’t always a why. And sometimes, there is a why and you know what it is. And sometimes, there is a why and you don’t know what it is.
Today I was feeling like I needed comfort food. I was craving a bowl of tomato soup and a grilled cheese sandwich. And not just any tomato soup, but the old school Campbells Old Fashioned Tomato Rice soup. The tomato soup from when I was a kid. The condensed kind, that you have to add a can of water too. The kind that I haven’t had in more years than I can even try to remember. The kind that I don’t dare read the ingredients or the amount of sodium. But I wanted that soup, and that sandwich.
It took me a bit (slow on the uptake) but I finally remembered that tonight is the first night of Hanukkah. OF COURSE I’m missing her extra. Duh!
Went to 1st Family Christmas dinner without my Mama being there, harder than hell but I did what I knew she would want me to do. #missmymama #christmas
Every now and then I think she’s giving me signs that everything is going to be okay. ♥️🙏🏼 #missmymama
Stopped by to see you on our way to the airport today mom. It's crazy that 6 years ago today I was visiting you for the first time since you moved to Massachusetts and seeing you sober for the first time in 11 years. Just 6 short years later I'm leaving on the same day after seeing you for the last time... 😭. Although my heart is broken, I am certain that you are at peace. That doesn't make it hurt any less or make me miss you any less but it does give me comfort. We made it to the airport safe and are waiting (im)patiently to board since we were super early. I'm gonna miss visiting your grave but I will be talking to you daily and posting often, I'm sure. I hope you like the roses we left today. I love you so much! Thanks to all my family for their support, love and hospitality during the past 2 weeks. I love you all. ❤️
#heartbroken #missmymama #loveyouinfinitelymom
Went to visit you today, mom. It was nice to be there with you alone for a bit while Ava slept in the car but it was so cold! I left you some candy orange slices since I know how much you loved them. We picked up your flowers and laid them around the tombstone so it would look pretty. Ava sat by it for a minute and then I chased her around and played hide and seek with her before we were too frozen to move. We'll see you tomorrow. Missing you endlessly. Love you! ❤️😭
#missmymama #mybestfriend #heartbroken
What a difference a year makes...and the difference is you!.............. A year yesterday since we found out that the bastard that is cancer had entered our lives. My memory might not be great but I remember that day clearly. It just shows how quickly things can change and reminds us not to put things off for a rainy day or special occasion, everyday with those you love is special, even the shit days when you'd rather not see anyone... Pips I miss you more than I can say and more than anyone really knows! I love you! ❤💔 #FUCKOFFcANCER #missmymama #oneyearonfromdiagnosis
mama 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽 rest well dear grandmother... I will see you on the other side soon ... 💔 Each time she looked at me .. my grandmother said she saw me as that age never an adult . Always a little girl ... #missmymama #grandmotherslove
Mom keeps sending me signs to let me know she’s with me. I didn’t even realize I parked in front of this photo on the wall, as I sit here and eat my sandwich. I look up and I see “sandwiches” “Dolores” 😱😍💕💕🙏🙏😍😍 #MissMyMama
Went by to visit mama's grave this morning before I left Arkansas. Put some silver Poinsettias on her grave site. #heaven #missmymama
Channeling my inner Joanna Gaines in our sitting room... tried to make my Mama proud. My mom had the best Christmas trees ❤️🎄 #ZuhrChristmas #missmymama
8 years ago on November 23rd, my sweet mama took her last breath. When she was alive, we spent pretty much every Saturday shopping. Black Friday was also a big day...we shopped hard. Since she died I haven't really shopped. I'm not exaggerating. I will buy groceries, but shopping has lost all that made it fun. Now it just makes me sad. So this morning, instead of shopping, I memorialized her by running when we would have been waiting in line to shop til we drop. As I passed by those waiting outside a local business at 6 am, I thought about how much fun we had freezing our butts off in line. And it made me miss her, but also made me smile.
While she never knew this version of me, I wish she had. I remember that she used to comment about this local runner and she would say, "I wish I understood why it looks like she's having fun." 😅😅😅 I would shake my head and think...it must be because the runner is crazy But now I get it. I wish I could tell her that the runner was likely a little crazy and was definitely having some fun! .
RIP angel mama 💓
#iwishheavenhadvisitinghours #missmymama #memorialrun
Here’s a throwback I’m Thankful for! This is a few of my favorites looking adorable AF! Throwback to before the icy winter came! Throwback to before our lovely giant umbrella was stolen and we were sheltered from the rain! It’s ok though cuz I still get to call these people my friends! I am Thankful everyday for the wonderful friends and family in my life! The second pic is of me and my beautiful brothers from last Christmas 🎄 I wish we could all be together this year but you are always here in my heart! ♥️ #unconditionallove #friendsarefamily #missmymama #whossothankful #thankful
This rose reminds me of my mom. She had the most beautiful roses growing in the backyard where I grew up. Give thanks for the small things in your life. Remember where you came from. #missmymama
The first year I didn’t spend Thanksgiving with my sisters. Usually we spend it cooking things that our mother taught us I’m thankful for the little things and my family. But know I’m not in the spirit I miss my mama dressing, my uncle chitterlings and fried corn. So I guess me and my brother and our significant others will enjoy dinner out today. Have a Happy Thanksgiving!!!! #missmymama #missmyuncle