I’m constantly working on myself, to make myself better I’m so many aspects. One of the main things I work on is my health & fitness. It’s something I have absolute control over, & I know that if i give up on it I’m giving up on myself in a sense.
Since I started working in a bar I get told how gorgeous I am, or how I have a killer body. Usually the people saying those words are drunk so I don’t pay it much mind, but after hearing it so many times it really picks up your confidence quite a bit, & then someone has to come around & knock you back down to where you were. I had a person -on Facebook- tell me that I don’t even look like I’m in shape or that i workout, a person who’s never seen me.. has no idea what I look like aside from photos. & it stung. A lot. & considering how hard I work it made it even worse.
But then I realized that person doesn’t dictate my life, or my feelings, or my self esteem. I know the work I put in, I know the transformations I’ve seen my body make. Yeah I may still be a bigger girl, but damn... I’m almost 6ft tall. 🤷🏼♀️ I will always have my round hips & my little bit of a pouch of loose skin because I’ve been through pregnancy & childbirth. These Mom hips are here to stay now & im ok with it. I have to remember that while I may not like my body there’s someone out there who wishes they could have a body similar to mine, just as I wish I had a body similar to half of the fitness models I follow, or @caitlincleland_ifbb
😘 You may not realize it but your words have an affect on people, whether they say they do or not. Words CAN hurt. But instead of dwelling on those words & letting them bring me down I’m just gonna use them to push me forward, & get me that much closer to my goals. I’m just gonna take all the nice things people tell me & use those to remind me my work is paying off. I’m just saying... as a woman.. being told by another straight woman “girl you’re just thick in all the right places” yeah... that’s the shit we should be telling each other. Stop trying to tear people down, build them up instead. I may not always live by my words. But damn, I’m trying.