Fuck depressive episodes, fuck not getting out of bed, fuck waking up crying. Seriously.
Happy Saturday, today I’m funneling my sadness into focus and fury. I’ve got a life to live, goals to crush, and weights to lift. I have no time for soul-crushing sadness.
Some of you may think this is in stark contrast to my recent mantra, feel the pain and don’t distract yourself, but it’s quite the opposite. I am following the advice of one of my most beloved fictional characters, ‘use the pain of loss’. I’m not hiding from my problems or ignoring them, I’m choosing to respond to them in a productive way. Sadness is an inactive emotion - you shut down and want to curl into a ball. Anger is an active emotion, you want to DO SOMETHING! So I’m doing something. I’m not angry at her, I’m not angry at myself, I’m not self-loathing, I’m just choosing to express myself energetically instead of lethargically.
For a long time I was jealous of people who used the gym as stress relief and I’m happy to say I’m finally there, but I can confidently say I’m there, because the gym is now a comfort, like food or sleep. I am in command of myself here, others look to me for advice, but this did not happen overnight. I trained, I listened, I studied, and now this is my Fortress of Solitude (I will not reference Superman often so enjoy it if you’re into that). Find your goal, find a way to make practice your release, and your progress will amplify.
Song today is My Demons by Starset. That’s all I’ll say today.
If you’ll excuse me I’m gonna go exercise my demons.
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