I wish I could freeze time,
Right now everything is perfect in my life. I have a wonderful husband, 4 beautiful kids, my youngest is one week old and the fresh baby smell still fills my nose every time I breathe her in. It’s pure bliss, there is nothing in this world that compares to the feeling of holding my babies, holding my heart in my hands and breathing them in. What I would give to have this moment last forever, my heart aches knowing that I can’t keep everything this perfectly beautiful for myself and my precious family always. My darling husband is so present right now, doting over his precious new little girl, attending to all of our darling 2 year old boys needs, lovingly catering to my gorgeous 2 older kids, his step children and loving me in all my postpartum glory. He makes me feel adored, he loves me perfectly and nourishes my soul. He tenderly cares for me in every way so that I can care for our new daughter and rest as my body heals. The world keeps turning and everyone’s lives go on as normal, but I feel like my world has dramatically slowed down. I sit and look around my home, it’s beautifully chaotic here. It’s so noisy as the older two argue over what to watch on YouTube and my toddler roars like a lion and stomps like a dinosaur. It’s safe here, it’s cozy and so full of love. Right now I mostly sit breastfeeding the days away, observing all of this wonder. My cup is so full, my only hurt being that I cannot make this exact moment last forever. I am truly blessed and never want to forget how I feel right now.