Forever Family Day
Seven years ago now and I still remember it all. The sneeze that forever changed us, our story, and saved his life. Sitting in the ER, a 2 year old on my 6 month pregnant belly, the doctor told me, “now don’t freak out, but we did find a little something.” Watching the paramedics as they were calmly yet frantically rushing to get him to a neurosurgeon. Seeing him suffer the most pain I have ever witnessed as he lay in the ICU. Hearing the surgeons telling me that there was no time, no choice but to operate. The heart breaking explanation that he may not know me, be able to speak to me, function as he once had, or have much more left in his life sentence afterwards. The every thirty minute neurological function checks to see that he still knew who the President of the United States was. Him asking me to make them stop or he will say, George Washington!! 😂 Holding his hand all night and never wanting to ever let go. I memorized everything about him. .
While it all seems so vivid in my head, at the same time, it’s all a blur compared to the single moment when they came for him. I walked at his bedside as they wheeled him down the hallway to the elevator. Trying to say all the things I knew I needed to say, knowing he was so drugged and wouldn’t respond. He squeezed my hand so hard I can still feel it. He opened his eyes and took every bit of strength to whisper, “I love you.” When the doors closed, in what seemed like slow motion, I fell to my knees and cried out, not caring who could hear me. Begging and pleading to Heavenly Father to hold the him in palm His hand and bring him back to me.
During the overwhelming silence that followed, I learned to put faith over fear and came to really know what being a forever family truly meant. That single most moment of this entire life experience, I will never forget. I lean on it each and everyday that we have been blessed to spend together because this is our love story and it will last forever. 💕
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