For years I have owned the same clothes and said when I get to a certain weight I am buying a new wardrobe. I would do things like put money away for when that moment would come. That moment would never come cos my weight yoyo's more than someone playing with their new yoyo. (Can you actually buy yoyo's anymore?? 🤔) Anyways about a month ago, something in my brain changed from hating my body and always wanting to lose weight... to aye you actually look alright, maybe its time for that new wardrobe!! I stopped hating what I saw and instead thinking whata banging rig I have. Could be better but aye its been hell of alot worse.
So then I went shopping and normally shopping goes something like this.. see something nice, pick a size I should be, size doesn't fit, look at myself in the mirror in my underwear, hate what I see, walk out of change room, leave in a bad mood, emotionally eat my way back to happy.
Now it goes something like this.. see something nice, try it on, get a different size if it doesn't fit, look in the mirror for 10 mins thinking 'fuck yeah, what occassion can I create to wear this to?' Buy outfit, leave happy, no more emotionally eating
What changed?? Fuck the size, no one can see it. In fact no one has ever said 'hey nice dress what size is that?' So find the size that fits comfortably and flaunt that outfit like the town tramp
#loveyourself #portmans #newclothes #happy #livingmybestlife #saynotoselfhate