Do you have a morning motivation routine? I've found that if I start my day spending some time identifying things/people/etc for which I am thankful, practicing the Law of Attraction by writing affirmations and positive intentions, and attempting meditation (I'm a rookie but learning), things tend to flow more smoothly for me.
However, if you're not truly internalizing your thoughts and feelings and gratitude, then you're missing the point of doing any of it and you're just going through the motions for the sake of checking a box. Starting your day intentionally and pushing your mind to focus on the positive, as well as what you DO have (vs what you don't) will have a compound effect in how your life starts to change. If you're wanting to change your life you must start by changing your thoughts.
I'm am 100% a work in progress but I've come a heck of a long way in the dialogue that runs though my conscious and subconscious about myself. Start trying to catch yourself in negative thought cycles and begin adjusting. Most of us talk to ourselves in a way we wouldn't dare talk about or to another human. And that's complete BS. You DESERVE better and should start treating yourself more kindly and with more compassion. ❤