I've been gone a few days but I'm back now. "It's really hard to stay positive. It's easy for me to get caught up in the bad things that happen. I can have a great day full of wonderful things, but at the end of the day, I am left thinking about the worst parts, even if they aren't even that bad. I'll have good days, but I'll still feel empty. I've been working on thinking positively but these past few days, it hasn't been working. That's why I haven't been posting. I've been too upset and down that I couldn't get myself to write. But today, I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and write. I think my whole being is a little off just because my schedule has not been normal. Between the winter break from school and stress from finals, I've not had a regular schedule to adjust to. But I think I'll start feeling better now that the new semester is starting and a regular schedule will develop. All I know is that I have to keep trying to hold my head high and think positively."