Finally feeling back to me & DANG.. does it feel gooood! 🤓🖤🙌🏼.
Something I didn’t admit was that I struggled hard.. I’ve never been hit with the “post show blues” as bad as I did after North Americans. It wasn’t that I wanted to compete again.. actually it was the complete opposite. I was totally burnt out, but felt lost and inadequate when I got home. Saying it aloud now sounds silly, but it happens.. Working tirelessly for an end date, but what happens when that date passes ..? 👀.
I’m here 3 weeks later, a few lbs up from stage; going out, traveling, enjoying myself; not freaking over a skipped gym session. Most importantly, I’m feeling comfortable in my own skin again.. 🙏🏼.
This is HUGE as the past few months have been constant doubting that I wasn’t “good” or “lean” enough despite the reassurance (being in a physique sport isn’t easy on the mental game 😅).
I still follow structure, but with a altered plan in place. Embracing this new season of life with fitness included, not being everything.. Finding my harmony one day at a time! ✨⚖️.
#newseasons #lifeupdate #struggles #bestself #reversedieting #improvementseason #bodybuildingcom #legday #quads #teambbcom #beavisionary
You are your greatest enemy. ⚫️You determine your future ⚫️Your work ethic defines you ⚫️You decide if your going to be broke or successful ⚫️You either can be proud or ashamed of who you are ⚫️You decide if you want to be a loser or a winner. -
It’s all up to you on who you want to be. If you want something in life you must hustle and work hard for it. You can’t just dream and talk big, you gotta put in the work. Also forget those haters and those who put you down cause they just talk because they got nothing else to do with their lives. Keep huslin 💯 -
#dynstlifestyle #dynst #hustle #grind #mindset #clothingbrand #dynstmovement
Looking back at this makes me feel like I should start tanning 🤔
Things you’ll be repeatedly told for training, competing and remaining drug free...
‘Such a shame, wasting your time’
‘Why waste your potential?’
‘You’ll not get far without it’
‘Not even Arnold was natty. Why limit your growth?’
Many (probably most) of my friends in the bodybuilding world are assisted. That’s fine. There some very impressive athletes out there and even my all time heroes took gear. It’s a very personal choice for someone to pursue the sport drug free. Some have been tempted, and some people like myself can’t rationalise even the thought of it. If someone on juice respects or feels pity for my choice that’s fine too. My aim is to see what my potential can be simply whilst I’m healthy enough, injury free and able to train and keep building.
Of all my flaws, it’s just this one little piece of integrity no one or nothing can corrupt, and that alone fuels my tenacity furthermore. ‘Fire begets Fire’.
If my sons pursue a sport like this one day, and inevitably have people come alongside and say, ‘you’ll get no where without taking x, y and z’ , if a few pics can be presented of what can be accomplished, even against the assisted and that fuels the drive for them to stay drug free, then I got it right. That’ll mean more to me than any trophy or title. 💪
That moment right before the pump. The moment where you are about to do work. This has been my stress relief from working as a nurse full time and going to school to further my education. Trying to better myself everyday.
Just a little sneak peek at a distressed shiplap + custom wreath board I have in the mix. Super, super cute! I may make one for myself. .
Stay tuned for all the prep. I am still tagging and wrapping things up to set up tomorrow sometime. .
It has been a blast so far thinking up new ideas, collaborating with @newamsterdamandco
and finding a few antiques to throw in there. .
Stay tuned! .
Sometimes I wish my muscles grew like my hair 💁🏼♂️
Transformation from stage body to off season. I absolutely love the stage and that feeling you get before stepping on stage! Do I miss my prep body?! I do, but then I remember I was hungry, tired, and irritable, for me there wasn’t such thing as having a balance life, it was all about the prep.. from my meals, to never missing my workouts and cardio sessions. Now I’m well into my off season. Enjoying my workouts. Keeping a balance diet (carbs are life & make me happy🤗) but most importantly I’m happy with myself and the goals I’ve set for me right now❤️🙏🙌 when the time comes I’ll do all the craziness of prep again!🏆 #prep #body #transformation #offseason
Hard to believe a year has passed since the last Time I competed and this is the first year in last five I have no plans to compete in a Powerlifting meet or I am not in prep for a bodybuilding show. Both have provided great memories and stories. These trophies are just collecting dust but are great reminders of some pretty special moments in time for me. I had no real plans to compete until the man in the next picture who was the first to teach me how to lift died due to pancreatic cancer Mr D. I wanted to honor him in the best way I could. That year 2014 I competed in three shows The Granite State Open Monster Mash and Worlds actually managed to place at Mash and was told I held my own against competitors from around the world and held my own at Worlds in Boston Ma. The next year 2015 did Granite State and Monster Mash. Monster Mash which provided me with prob the worst feeling one can imagine as I started in center stage and was slowly pushed off to side and did not place Also had plans to compete at Worlds that year but felt demoralized and didn’t make the trip to Atlantic City. The following year 2016 competed at Yankee classic after recovering from surgery and placed third Then last year did my first and prob my only Powerlifting meet and won my class. First time winning anything that would mean anything. Feel that I could add maybe 10 pounds to bench and deadlifts and 20 or so to my squat but with setback after setback this year just is not worth it to chase poundage. Bodybuilding is where my heart is. Hope this is not the end #bodybuilding #bodybuilding_motivation #powerliftingmotivation #gettingstronger #jackedandtan #naturalbodybuilding #prep #dovernh #worcesterma #boston #cheatmeals #squat #bench #deadlift
Everyone sees you in a different light... not everyone deserves the same you....😈😎
Turkey Lettuce Wraps // This is one of our regular go-to meals during the week! The kids LOVE it... it’s quick, easy and fun to eat 👍🏼 #whatsfordinner #healthy #dinner #recipe #ideas #family #toddler #baby #eats #foodie #photography #meal #prep #wellness #wednesday
1lb ground turkey
1 medium onion
1” piece ginger
1 clove garlic
1 sweet potato
2 cups spinach mix/kale slaw
*Soy sauce, sesame oil and Hoisin sauce to taste
Stir fry turkey, onion, ginger and garlic
Chop zucchini, sweet potato and mushrooms into small cubes. Add to pan with sauce of choice
When vegetables are tender and turkey is cooked through, add spinach and kale slaw and cook until just wilted
Top with cashews, sliced green onions and cilantro. Serve in lettuce cups
There is a lot more to what I’m making right now than cutting up clothes and weaving them together. There’s ceremonies: funerals, tributes, marriages, intention setting, poetry readings, spell casting, transformation,meditation. This week I had to bury a work that I could not finish, and in turn recorded the burial to document the work and the ritual. And then it occurred to me that I maybe should have been doing it all along. Because the work is not just the finished tapestry, it’s also the ritual. The destruction, the making of peace, the poems, the symbolic letting go. I’m looking forward to learning how to flesh out the roundness of what I’m creating and sharing in a very different way than I have before.
#cuttingup #craft #newcraft #ritual #rituals #magic #spellcasting #chaosmagick #witchcraft #contemporaryart #contemporarycraft #artist #detroitart #detroitartist #process #artistsoninstagram #behindthescenes #videoart #chubrub #poetsofinstagram #textile #fiberart #prep #queer #queerart