shared a post which inspired me to do this post. A post about everything I should and can be proud of, because thats something that will always be forgotten. I want to share this to remind myself what I can be proud of over the years, especially because my way as a chronic sick person was different than others. I need it to build some selfconfidence, so this post is not to brag, but because I need it. You can be proud too.
I live with depression and other mental health issues for over 18 years and survived countless suicide attempts. My will to live is stronger than everything that happened to break me. I survived 3 psych wards, open and closed ward, with being fixen to bed with my hands and feet. I survived years and years of sexual, physical and emotional abuse, which made me stronger and kinder as a person. I have survived 15 years of selfharm and quit on my own. I am in intensive treatment for almost 12 years and I still want to fight. I received my MBO diploma after failing and trying for 7 years. After they have send me from school 3 times and didn’t pas the schoolyear for 5. After teachers said I will never, ever get a diploma. I got it. I am proud of my relationship with my husband which only gets stronger. We survived SO much and he never wanted to leave and stayed by my side. I live with chronic pain since I am 12, when my fibromyalgia started and now I dont know how to live without pain and still do everything on foot and on my own, trying to depend on no one else. I live with Crohns disease since I am 18, which gave me the most physical pain I have ever been through for months and I dont want to let it lead my life. I am a mom of a beautiful daughter and I am trying my best to parent and teach with mental and physical illnesses. I shared my story about selfharm at my husband class full of strangers and working on being a experience experts and give lessond about mental health ‘professionally’. I was interviewed and filmed multiple times to share my story with already millions of people, which scares me, but is something I can be very, very, proud of (thanks to my friends to help me remind me of it, thank you ❤️).