Top: I was on set for an ad for a slimming product and was so insecure and scared that I was going to get fired because I was too big. I starved myself for days for this shoot. I was anorexic, addicted to cigarettes, black coffee, cocaine, laxatives, diuretics and just about anything else that could help me stay a size 2. Believe it or not I was one of the bigger girls in the modelling circle at that time, and the final images for this ad were photoshopped so I was skinnier.
Bottom: Me today, still modelling at size 8. I eat meals, quit everything I was addicted to, I'm healthy and strong. It's a new body for me. I am still learning to love my new attributes and tell myself that I'm beautiful. I spent my life in an industry where thigh gaps and protruding collarbones, ribs and hipbones is beautiful...now at 29 years old to reprogram that thinking is difficult. I get overwhelming moments where I hate myself and just want to go back to how I was before. I'm recovering. Stay strong - it gets better, I promise. Whether it's a good day or a bad day, love yourself and be fearless.
I want to put the images out there that I never had. I want to tell my story because I don't want young girls and women to go through what I did. I want to change this industry and show that HEALTH is what we should promote. I want to give representation to everyone in between sample and plus size and to everyone who doesn't fit into a box. I want women to love themselves and their bodies because we possess a certain type of magic, power and strength that is the epitome of beauty.
Wk in + wk out I’m doing a whole lot of this. Entirely aware of the fact that I work too late + maybe even too much (according to some). I’m so fulfilled by my work but it doesn’t make my bones hurt any less, my brain spin any less, or give me a free pass to eternal + unwavering bliss. This past wk was hard + I think it’s important to be honest about that. I’ve found that one of my best coping mechanisms is the practice of specific gratitude. Today I’m grateful for the endless avenues I have at my fingertips to help me manage my stress better. Today I’m grateful for my liberties. Today I’m grateful for perspective. And right now... I’m just grateful to have finished my to-do list before midnight 🕛
lmfaoooooo y’all so funny. I’m going inbetween my accounts and y’all really going tit for tat with each other over extension cord like- it’s true... once y’all’s fave(s) becomes involved it’s all jokes aside and learn some respect and have some decent manners. Y’all telling other people how to act when y’all wouldn’t act like that to begin with like how the fuck does that work my g?????🤔🧐Me no comprehendé🤷🏽♀️But y’all be the same ones laughing about the most fucked up shit ever and cracking jokes at the same damn time talk about problematic, two faced and hypocritical af y’all need to pick a struggle which one it’s gon’ be??? Let me use your fave line against y’all real quick.... ITS OK!!! MAYBE THAT’S HOW PEOPLE COPE!!! THEY LAUGH THE PAIN AWAY THEY MAKE JOKES TO FEEL BETTER!!! NOT EVERYONE UNDERSTANDS DARK HUMOR!!!! ITS PERFECTLY NORMAL THESE *gestures wildly* ARE COPING MECHANISMS BITCH DON’T BE COMING FOR ME!!!! I mean y’all hoes really made jokes about slavery.... BUT- wait!!! It was ok if you were black but still its the point. Considering how serious that was and the whole history. Mhm *rolls eyes* y’all some indecisive hoes. DO BETTER YOU PROMBLEMATIC HEADASSES!!!!! You big mad huh.... too bad too sad. -
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These Two....Love them...Keep us in your prayers...#RealTalk
Let’s play a game. Take stock, right this second, of three things you’re grateful for. Feel free to elaborate or keep it simple. I’m staying simple, because I think this list speaks for itself: early summer rain, early summer hot sun, and fresh flowers. It doesn’t matter how big or small, but share your list! #gratefulheart
When you love your stove but rather order take out instead #realtalk
Things we go through on this trip! This was our snack the other day: Untoasted toast with canned tuna topped with a sprinkle of dry instant noodles. We were really hungry in a motel far out of the city and this was all there was left in our panniers🙈🙈🙈 #gourmet
For me, success is about making the most number of people’s lives better. At the core of it, I know that’s what I’m actually chasing.⠀
I’ve spent a lot of time sorting through what “success” means to me and time and time again I come back to that. It’s not money. It’s not fame. It’s nothing material. It’s about creating spaces, experiences, and moments that help people become more honest and aligned with themselves. In that space is where I find the most energy and drive, where I feel the most alive, and where I get the largest sense of purpose and meaning.⠀
It’s taken a while to fully sit with that, but I’m certain that at least for me, it’s everything.⠀
And deep down, I’m pretty confident that a whole lot more of us know that as well…⠀
📍: Snapped this shot of @heytaaz
on the last @chasingsunrise
road trip. It has been so f*cking cool watching her go from almost dying on a skateboard to ripping roads alongside me. Getting texts like "OMG, I can't stop" has been all the stoke I need to keep me going.⠀
Today ended on a good note!!!!!!!
Sometimes we have bad days, sometimes it happens to be on a Monday. It cant always be smiles and positive vibes. We are human... Aka we can feel sad or angry, secluded, shut off. However we all feel. Today I was ANGRY. So angry that my knuckles lost 😅 But it’s easier to recover when I have people that send extra love, positive vibes, 10 seconds FaceTime videos with nothing but kisses. 😘 They help me get through it. Even when Im being EXTRA❤️ Thanks guys you know who you are 😘😘❤️ •
Good Note: If that doesnt work theres ALWAYS A COOKIE! 🍪 #mondaymood #cookie #dontworrybehappy #smilefromeartoear #goodmoodvsbadmood #realtalk #supporteachother #lovemypeople #wordsofwisdom
A mans worth can be found in his debth of being. A shallow man, easily perturbed and swayed, is worth less to his woman and his world than a man whose presence is deeply sourced. #realmen #bosslady #realtalk #wherearetherealmen
The R-A-M, Ruthless Gangster, hXoXlXlXyXwXoXoXdX K^iller, Original Compton Crip, loCC'd out Compton Nut. Cee, you can take it how you want to, but I really don't give a mad fuCC.. 'CCause I'm givin' up nothingX, but the real.. straight the fuCC up, on The Hub. What's up, Keke? CCuz, I got two thumbs up.. you know it's on for the set.. from this Evil East Cide K to them West Cide Trey's, loCC, it's all love and respect. Compton style.. front to baCC, Cide to Cide, on three's 'round the CCorner, steady hittin' the switch down the strip.. draggin' the bumper on Daytona's, up and down, liCC after liCC. Yo, H-Bone, my nigga.. KiCC that motherfuCCing Chit. 1 #Compton #CA #bongbeauties #losganjales #me #ram #life #realtalk #truth #original #gangster #reality #history #blue #style #facts #music #rap #black #love #lowrider #ladies #beautiful #hubcity #california #street #classic
truth: why does everything feel like yesterday?
truth: today the boys got to see where we got married. which was yesterday...
truth: time is a thief.
truth: + a blessing. + i need to appreciate it a whole heckuva lot more than i do.
truth: i want to do more front porch sitting + less front seat yelling.
truth: ☝🏼 seriously though new summer goal.
Designing a life you love is challenging, but oh so worth the struggles. ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
Each day is a new beginning to try new things, meet new people, push yourself out of your comfort zones. ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆
We get one shot at this life and we should make it count. No regrets. Do the things that make you happy. Spend time with loved ones, take care of your body, pay attention to warning signs with your health, and damn it, don't just work your life away. Yes working and adulting is important, but your work, your co-workers, your customers etc won't be there at the end of your life, but hopefully your family and closest friends will if you treat them right along the way. Oh and p.s. you can't take the money that you're working your ass off for with you when you die either, so don't let that shit rule your life. Just sayin'.👊❤💯 Good night. 😴
#realtalk #lovelife #designalifeyoulove #takecareofyourself #lovehard #moneyainteverything #knowwhatisimportant #familyfirst #loveyourself #lovelife
😔still can’t let go of all these edits with his songs or himself in it.
snuggling this sweet boy a little harder and a lot longer tonight. we had a bit of a scare today...i found him covered in ant killer, holding the empty cartridge in his hands. praise god he is okay 🙌🏼 i may have freaked out (that’s an understatement). i can’t recall ever being so scared//helpless in my entire life. all that to say: 1) squeeze your babies and don’t let go first. and 2) i’m so glad summer kdo starts tomorrow because 4 kids are a lot of work...i obviously can’t keep up.
I have been in another country, 3 different states, the hospital, and away from my new home for 20 out of the last 30 days. (It might look like it from social media, but it hasn’t all been easy) I’ve had a lot of time to reflect and also learn some very valuable life lessons, and in the end I’m really starting to believe that everything does happen for a reason. Most importantly I am SO happy to be home for a while with my girl and all the people who make each day better than the day before 💫 #realtalk
you got one life to live. idk what you fuckers wanna do with it but i wanna smoke some weed hang with my boys with my girl under my arm. if you got a problem with me i couldn’t care less. #july2018 #realtalk
This post exemplifies assumption based dating. And women that constantly fail the dating phase. A man telling a woman that they have to see how the situation between them plays out means he doesn’t know what’s going to happen between them. But what this kind of chic wants is for him to pretend that he can see the future and tell her that they’re going to be together. Which is exactly what fuckboys do. And since she has a backwards way of viewing things she views the man that is being honest and transparent with her negatively based completely on her assumptions and will view the man that blows smoke up her ass like he’s a king. Is this kind of flawed perspective on how quality relationships are established and the negative perception women have of men that completely ruin their dating experiences! Now watch how many women come under this post and agree with the clueless chic that wrote it! Tag someone that would like my page or the things I talk about! ↗️ Turn on your post notifications!! Tag someone that would like my page or the things I talk about! #terryderon #clueless #relationshipadvice #lovelife #dating #relationships #message #nolie #wordstoliveby #truestory #trust #respect #realtalk #imjustsaying #facts #truelove #accurate #reallytho #truthbetold #loyalty #straightup #factsonly #worstfeeling #lonely #trustissues #breakups