Oof this hit home. For as long as I can remember I’ve tried to be someone I’m not. Whether it be the way I dyed my hair, the clothes I wore, the way I spoke, and basically the way I portrayed my self to the world. I can honestly say I’m over it. I’m so ready to live my true authentic self. World, you better watch out.
Happy Easter!! I had a few of these mini eggs before🍫🐣 I really do hate the commercialised aspect of Easter, which is partly ED related... but I am going to work my way through what people got for me, whether that takes days or months 💁 Usually, I'd give them away or "share" aka giving them away basically, but I'm going to both share AND have some myself this year 🙈 Everyone else is celebrating it, and I'm thankful my family don't go overboard like some others do😂
I hope you guys have a nice day if you celebrate Easter - the weather's perfect again here, so I might try and go out if I can be bothered. And remember - you can eat chocolate if you want to! ✨
Vanmiddag de verjaardag van mijn moeder vieren en daar hoort natuurlijk taart bij🎈🎉 We moesten het gister avond nog kopen en omdat alles bijna uitverkocht was had ik lichtelijk paniek..(jep in de supermarkt waar iedeeen je kent..)😐 dus voor de mini tompoucen gegaan! Extra uitdaging omdat ik dit al heel lang niet meer gegeten heb, maar we laten het hierdoor niet verpesten😉 #recoveringdutchie #recovery #eetstoornisherstel #eetstoornis #recovering
Break-fast in the forrest, relaxing, reading and enjoying the sun in my hammock. Life is good
Моя история самоуничтожения или же похудения начинается банально.
Маленькая,глупенькая девочка решила похудеть...
К слову мне это было НЕ нужно. На тот момент мне было,примерно, 12 лет. Как раз период формирования.
Все начиналось не так плохо:занялась спортом,ограничивала себя,но не жестоко. Например, не ела после шести.
Результат был,в школе начали замечать. Тренер говорил о том, что я молодец. Мне это жутко льстило, и я все больше и больше закапывала себя в эту яму.
Могла за целый день поесть только в школе,потом на тренировку. Домой приходила в восьмом часу. Делала уроки и засыпала.
Вскоре я практически отказалась от пищи. Мне казалось, она мне не нужна... а потом есть уже не хотелось... Родители начали замечать это и пытались заставить меня есть. Ну а я, в свою очередь, начала бояться еды.
Пришло время скандалов и ссор.
На предложения покушать, я, с дрожью и историками, говорила однозначно "Нет"
Позже пришёл новый удар-из-за моего болезненного вида,синих губ и мешков под глазами, мне запретили любые тренировки... И, конечно же, психологическое состояние моё стремительно ухудшалось: я много плакала, не могла преодолеть свой страх еды, а всё силы уходили на подсчёт этих СТРАШНЫХ калорий... Однако, родители не сидели сложа рук... Началась новая ступень моей жизни. Мне. Нашли. Психолога... #историяанорексии #рпп #рекавери #анорексия #пп #ип #recovery #anorexia #восстановление #дневникпитания #дневникрпп #рппблог #фудблог #рппрекавери #рппвостановление
GPC Nationals Prep:
W2D4: Bench 2
3 Second Pause Bench: 4x3 @ 55
Standing BB Press: 4x10 @ 25
Conditioning // Lastminute.com session but feel so much better after it. Suddenly it is Sunday? Body feeling much better now this weeks over & ready to party with squats tomorrow. Thank you @connorwilliamsq @adelaidefitnesspc
for handouts 👏 // @_jac_attack_
...and with that, enjoy your families today✌🏼
we always think we are alone in our pain, or in our journey, or our struggle, but we aren't. our sisters and brothers and friends and children have felt the pain, and have walked this path, and they too are hurt, and struggling, and thinking they are alone.
but in truth- none of us is. our pain makes us believe we are alone. our depression can hide the world from us.
by sharing our pain, and our words, and our stories, we heal ourselves but we also heal each other.
by shining our light, we help show someone else on the path that they are not walking alone.
connection is the opposite of shame, the opposite of loneliness.
connect, listen, love.
you are not alone.
we are not alone.
we are the world.
light it up. .
#connection #listen #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalillness #shine #voice #connect #light #bethelight #share #shame #struggle #recovery #recover #recovering #recoveroutloud #mentalhealth #shareyourstory #speakyourtruth #wearetheworld #lightitup #sisterhood #neveralone
Life has been incredibly chaotic the past 24 months, Heartbreaking to say the least!
I had to stand alone at times to empower myself as my truth and my reality was not being understood and as hurtful and soul destroying as that is, the truth always has a way of coming out!
True colors are exposed and hurtful things are said and done but that's all part of the growth!
I am so incredibly proud of my Son and I for powering through the destructive chaos that we had no part to play in and through non judgement, unconditional love, owning our reality and not being intimidated, bullied or judged the growth has been incredibly healing!
Never allow the behavior of others destroy you or your world!
Easter 2017 changed our plans and created the most incredible destruction to Three Individuals that were already processing the devastating healthscare scandal that this country has created to over half a million families on this island of Ireland. .
The three of us were hugely vulnerable and broken from that ordeal that the past 24 months have just been a Heartbreaking reality of what can happen when Traumatic events cross our paths!
For today, before you judge another person's reality, before you choose to interfere in the lives of others, before you gossip or speak badly of another human being, ask yourself, Is it True? Is it necessary? Is it any of my business?
Respect every person's reality as we have no idea what any one is Experiencing in there own world's!
Last December Alleycats TV Contacted me and my previous business partner and offered us an opportunity to tell our story in their documentary that is currently airing on @rteone
, as I am now the sole owner of my own business project I took the opportunity not quite sure if it was the right thing to do but after consultation with my mentors I'm glad I did as it has put me and my son back on our path and it has already opened doors to Incredible opportunities and my TV appearance hasn't even been aired yet!
Never give up on your goals and always own your reality, and heal in whatever way suits you best!
Live your best life, Mind, Body & Soul! D 💋🦋💜🏄🏻♀️
notizia bomba: quelle che vedete in foto sono SOLO delle lasagne.
non sono cattive, non ci vogliono male, sono solo un insieme di ingredienti cotto nel forno e servito a tavola.
è solo un piatto con del cibo caldo che riscalda l’anima.
pranzo: lasagne bianche (vegetariane) con asparagi, piselli e carciofi.
dolce: fragole, cioccolato e panna🏆
ho vinto io ☺️🐣
Being honest doesn’t just imply that you tell the truth about your day to day interactions. It’s means a lot more than sharing where you’ve been, what you’ve been up to and who you’ve been spending your time with, though that’s a great start.
Being honest means that you share with the world who you truly are and that you stand behind that no matter what anyone else thinks. Your closest friends, your family members, your co-workers, everyone.
You have to admit who you are to YOURSELF first before you can share that with the world. It takes a tremendous amount of courage to be honest with yourself.
For years I called myself “bisexual” because my conservative Jewish mother couldn’t handle the word “gay” – and oh my god “lesbian” was definitely OUT OF THE QUESTION. When I told her I was bisexual at the age of 23 and that I was casually seeing a woman, she flipped out…so I followed with “but don’t worry Mum, I am just experimenting.” Little did she know I was living for a year in an apartment in Los Feliz with my Mexican-American girlfriend whom I loved and who also happened to be 100% deaf…not hard of hearing, deaf and that the only way we communicated was through sign language (ASL).
I was so use to calling myself bisexual that when people who didn’t know me well reacted with surprise when I mentioned I had a girlfriend, I responded with an auto-pilot explanation “well, I’m really bisexual.” It was a protective almost subconscious reply from a woman who didn’t want to to be judged by a new friend, co-worker or a distant relative.
It took me 20 years and becoming sober to finally say that I am gay. Not bisexual. Gay. If you’re gay, straight, lesbian, queer, trans, non-binary, however you identify (and that may change and that’s okay too!)…be proud of who you are.❤️
Anger is really just a disguise for hurt. It covers up pain. We need to understand the hurt that we are feeling. We are never just angry…we are embarrassed, abandoned, rejected, humiliated, betrayed, unseen, hurt, let down, or fearful. We are those things first, before we are ever angry.
It doesn’t always feel that way, but because it’s so easy for us to get angry so quickly, it tricks us into believing that’s all we are experiencing. When we let anger control us, a lot of horrible things happen. We say things we don’t mean, we hurt others, we become vicious and cutting. We act out and do things we later regret.
The challenge is to recognize what we are actually experiencing before we lash out in anger and then to be truthful to those feelings. Anger is a disguise. Our job is to take off its mask and have the courage to be vulnerable…and to then share the hurt and the pain in a way that can be understood, heard and received.
It’s about working on our patience and slowing down. It’s giving ourselves permission to understand what it is we are really feeling. It’s honoring the 3 second “pause” before we react. It is never an easy task, but one that is so important.❤️
It can’t be forgotten, it just doesn’t work that way. But it can be honored. That’s the thing about our traumas. Trying to forget them doesn’t actually erase them; nothing does.
So we need to honor them – the story, the pain, the loss, the fear, the survival, the healing and then the transformation. Do your best to honor your wounding. Stand up for yourself. Be proud you addressed your pain, whether it be from 20 years ago or 2 years ago. Be proud of your growth and who you’ve become because you had the courage to face your past and a need to heal. You deserve it.
As I always say, “Our wounds are our wisdom.”
There are so many gifts that come with healing and recovery. Other than gratitude, forgiveness is the most life changing. So many of us spend our lives either outwardly or secretly resenting others. This can be anyone from a co-worker to our own parents, as well as those who are no longer part of our lives or whom have passed on.
We poison ourselves with these resentments and with the anger we hold onto so tightly. It causes stress on the mind and body which often manifests in physical pain and disruptions to our mental health.
Forgiveness does not mean that the person did you no harm – not by any means. What it does mean is that you no longer have to carry the burden of the pain of the past. It means letting go of old wounds that no longer serve you today. It also means seeing the wrong doer as spiritually sick at the time of the incident.
Forgiveness will set you free and bring peace to your life. #drmartinlutherking
We are constantly told what we should and should not be doing. It comes from verbal and nonverbal messages. The messages come from our parents, in-laws, society, friends, our culture and religion.
“You should be married by age 29.” “You should really go back and get your MBA if you want true job security.” “Don’t be too outspoken at work or you’ll come off as bitchy.” “Don’t start your own business, it’s way too risky.” “Maybe you’re not gay and you just haven’t met the right man/woman yet?” and the list goes on and on.
Take a good hard honest look at your life. Are you living for others or are you choosing the things and people who help you with your growth? Are you living out of fear, or are you pushing your fear to the side, listening with your heart and embracing a life that reflects your greatest purpose?
“Shoulds” destroy us. They write the script. They become the narrative. They can rule our lives until we step in and have the courage to challenge them.
Let’s block the shoulds that don’t serve us and not live according to what other people need or want us to do. In most cases, it’s a reflection on the parts of their lives that aren’t whole and it has nothing at all to do with us. ❤️
It doesn’t matter if it’s Saturday morning or Wednesday morning, when we begin our day with gratitude and a healthy mindset, we set the precedent for the rest of the day. Waking up with a hangover is probably one of the best ways to ruin a day that may otherwise bring magic into your life, so is waking up resentful of others and in a place of non-forgiveness.
You never know what the Universe has in store for you on any given day, but you need to be in a state of receiving, which means a clear healthy mind, staying in gratitude for what you already do have and getting out and moving your body, whether that be a walk in nature, going to the gym or a class, or just walking your dog.
Keep your mind open to all possibilities, because there is a creative highly intelligent powerful force working for you behind the scenes when you live right. 💞
Alcohol, food, obsession with work or working out, gambling, weed, pills. We find all sorts of ways to numb ourselves from the unhealed pain in our lives.
Much of this pain is stored in our brain and carried over from our childhood year after year and then added upon as those original unhealthy experiences (which are now outdated) affect our current behavior and cause more chaos in our lives.
When we remove the numbing ingredient, we are forced to deal with those issues without a barrier. And that is the only way we can begin to heal them.
It’s the most challenging thing you will ever do in your entire life. It is also the most brave, as well as the most rewarding. And it is always worth it.
“Why is this happening?”, “Can I stop my negative patterns?”, “Does that type of love even exist?”, “Will this sadness ever pass?”. We ask and ask and ask.
We have years that demand that we get into the mud and explore ourselves, our narratives, our partners and family systems and our wounding. There are years that have us asking questions and then….there are years that give us answers. Years that give us freedom and peace from what once caused us suffering. There are years that have us finding our way and that prove to us that we have earned it. Years that move growth and healing into transformation.
Keep moving. Keep growing and asking. Keep LISTENING. If there’s anything you do, listen over and over again. Listen differently, listen and learn. Listen and move defensiveness out of your way. Listen and remove explanation. Listen to the answers that are trying to make their way to you.
True love is unconditional. It sounds like bumper sticker cliché, but it’s truth.
When we truly love someone, a partner, a friend, a family member, we do so without question and without changing our love for them based on their behavior.
This does not mean that we have to spend time with them if we don’t like their behavior – after we have expressed this to them when the time is appropriate, not when reactionary – but it means that we will love them regardless. ❤️#unconditionallove