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I don't necessarily call it "crazy". I call it "happiness with benefits". ✌🏼
Here’s a fun conversation I keep having with God: . Me: God when ya gonna take off this recovery weight....I’m good now, can it start to go away? Obedience = miracles, right? . God: No. This is your body. You need to love it like I love it. Right now. As is. Maybe as always will be. . Me: So you’re saying no weight loss, just this? Forever? 😕 . God: Love yourself. Period. I created you, THIS is your body. The shape doesn’t matter. Love you because I love you. . Me: So that’s a hard no? . God: “This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.” Love you as I love you. . Me: 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ . Welp. My missions clear. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Unconditional love and acceptance of THIS body. . . . . . . . . . . #blessed #grace #selflove #strong #purpose #conversationswithgod #fitnessjourney #trust #acceptance #gospel #praise #recoveryjourney #strongwomen #hope #mentalhealth #prayer #god #trust #jesus #christian #disciple #ministry #womanoffaith #intention #spiritualwarrior #prorecovery #precious #personaldevelopment #encouragement #bible
My scars show pain and suffering, but they also show my will to survive. I show my scars so you may know that you will heal. You can more than survive, you can thrive. • For too long I carried around shame and tried to cover up my scars, not just on the outside, but the emotional scars too. But perfection is not part of the Divine plan, so we can take our experiences and grow from them, move beyond the shame of them, and celebrate what they have taught us instead. • Our trials and tribulations enrich who we are now, and through the many experiences we’ve survived, we have been prepared to help others, to perhaps smooth the way for another who is searching for a new direction, or searching for the light at the end of the tunnel. • We can let go of the shame and instead use our trials to help another to smoother sailing. Wishing you some smooth sailing today! #TrueGritandGrace #resilience #scarsarebeautiful #scarsbuildcharacter #getgritty #Godsgrace #CRPSwarrior #thrive #progressnotperfection #recoveryjourney #empoweredwomen #strongertogether #34surgeries
Just had the prettiest @deliciouslyella cake leftover from the @themindmedic event last night for dessert after lunch 💕🌸 I’m so tired today but yesterday was so special 💖 #renourish #nutrition #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anxiety #mentalhealth #healthyfood #foodblogger #recoveryjourney #edwarrior #realrecovery #deliciouslyella
Buon pomeriggio 🌞 e buon pranzo 🍴(si, alle 1️⃣5️⃣ passate perché io posso *fa swish con i capelli 💁🏻‍♀️*, no ok: la smetto😂), ravioline 🥟 Stamattina mi ha accompagnata mia madre in auto 🚘 a scuola 🏫, perché la corriera 🚍 che è passata alla fermata 🚏 era stra piena e avrei dovuto aspettare quella delle 7️⃣:4️⃣0️⃣, arrivando tardi😬 Il compito di latino 🧐 penso sia andato abbastanza bene🤔 ma non ne sono certa 😅 Con italiano 🔡 siamo andati nel laboratorio di informatica 🖥 a vedere dei video sulla mafia 🕵🏻‍♀️ perché domani andremo ad una manifestazione per le vittime 🔪 delle mafie, appunto. Matematica 🔢 ha spiegato (🎉) mentre arte 🎭 ha parlato tutta l’ora di tombe ⚰️etrusche. All’uscita mi è venuta a prendere mia madre 🚘, anche se gli avevo detto che sarei andata con la corriera 🚍, ma non mi lamento😅, anzi😂 Per pranzo 🍴, mamma doveva cucinare 🥘 le orecchiette 🍝 con sugo 🥫 e gamberetti 🍤, ma non sapeva come sarebbe venuto quindi abbiamo diviso una scatola di ravioli 🥟 alla carne 🥩 da 250(!!!) gr❗️ Si, raggi di sole ☀️, ne ho presi la metà, senza imbrogliare nè me stessa nè mia madre❗️Sono riuscita a mangiare davvero 125 gr di ravioli e non potrei esserne più felice 😁! Ora, farò qualche compito 📖 per avvantaggiarmi e poi non so 🤷🏻‍♀️ se farò merenda🤔 Buon pomeriggio!🌞 {pranzo: ravioli 🥟 alla carne 🥩 con sugo 🥫} - - - - - #anawontwin #anawontgetme #anorexiarecovery #recoveryforhappiness #edrecovery #recoveryforsmile #recoveryforme #recoveryjourney #recoveryforpizza #recoveryforpasta
Checking to see if my elbow is good to go - starting with 15lb weights, 3 sets of 12. Form needs work but we'll get there - and how are you this morning? #recoveryjourney #gymhairdontcare #gymstagram #backatit #slowlybutsurely #weightlifting #fitnessjourney
For Monday Mornings Breakfast yesterday I tried out Banana Overnight Oats 🤩👏🏻💛 - - - Even though it’s such a simple breakfast, I’ve never been super confident with making Overnight Oats. I guess it’s never worked out completely well for me each time I’ve tried - I’ve had a few fails to say the least 😅 But I thought I’d give it another go with a few bits & bobs I had in my fridge. And... FINALLY IVE HAD A SUCESS. YAY! I’m actually so pleased to have finally mastered this basic 🙈 - - - My Basic Ass Banana & PB Overnight Oats Recipe: 40g Porridge Oats 50g Natural Yogurt 1/2 Mashed Banana 35ml Water Sprinkle of Cinnamon. Mix well & leave soak in fridge overnight. In the morning, top with the second half of the banana, a puddle of Peanut Butter & what ever else desired. I’m going to add walnuts next time! - - - If anyone has any Overnight oat tips, advice, secrets or combs that would step up my basic skills to a new level - all is appreciated! 😇
hiked the 40 minutes up from imlil to aroumd, a tiny berber village in the high atlas mountains and stayed the night in a traditional berber house - so beautiful and relaxing . again, not an easy way of life by any means for these villagers, but they open their homes and hearts, asking nothing in return 💜
Guys, I’m not doing well today. I just finished breakfast; it’s nearly 1pm. I had half my smoothie before going for a 75minute swim at 6.30am, but then had to take my car to the garage. Though my car is ok at the moment it’s very much on its last legs and the prospect of having to sort getting a new one in the imminent future is so stressful. I’m working from home for the rest of the day but I’m finding making the right recovery choices such a BATTLE today. I don’t even know why I’m doing this, I know if I don’t eat enough I won’t be able to exercise and I’ll just end up getting injured. And that it’ll make all my relationships worse. But I’m just feeling so stressed and anxious that even though I know what I need to do, stepping up to it seems so hard. What do you do when you have a blip in your #recovery ? I want to get back on track. I want to be able to eat to fuel, it shouldn’t be this hard >.< . . . #anorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryjourney #ednosrecovery
After treatment last night, mom brought me for a treat! And the multi-grain rice was pretty good too 😍 . . . #kimberlymeagan #igsg #2018 #singapore #japanese #food #yummy #roadtorecovery #momtime #love #omnomnom #yummyinmytummy #perks #recoveryjourney #friedfood #udon #japanesefood #tendon
Saying goodbye to my dogs this morning: “Love you boys, you be good. I’ll be back in an 20 min ok? Love you!” - Saying goodbye to my husband: “love you bye” 💕
Maybe now is the time to let go of the past. #JustLetItGo
There are a number of risks that people need to take in early recovery. Even getting sober. The individual may feel that they are taking a risk - it is a step into the unknown, a leap of faith, but in the end, it's the best option for the individual.
After dinner snack!!! Just having the rest of the Ben and Jerry’s ice cream from the other day 😋🤩 💖#recoverywin #benandjerrysicecream #foodismedicine #recoveryisworthit #recoveryjourney
I just had to post this 👌🏻🙌🏻 It resonates with me soo much, and I totally encourage it 💞 However you spent your day, wether it was, Wanting to 🏃 away, feeling Tired 😴 af, even if it doesn't feel good, that's ok, I get ya, it sucks, BUT guess what, we get another go, So bring on tomorrow, to try again, We've got this thing called LIFE 👊🏻👊🏻 It just likes to throw challenges at us 😁 Good nite and Sweet Dreams 💋💋💋💋 #mentalawarenesstrain #agoraphobia #panicdisorder #mentalhealthawareness #anxietyawareness #1in4 #recoveryjourney #recoveryispossible #anxiety ##anxietyisreal #mentalhealth #positivethoughts #selfdiscovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalillnessisreal #panicattack #youarenotalone #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillness #staypositive #selfdiscovery #livingwithanxiety #raiseawareness #mentaldisorder #anxietywarrior #youmatter #speakyourmind #inspire #agoraphobiaawareness #notmyquote
Dinner was Chicken asparagus and chips!!!🍟 decided to challenge myself because this is what the rest of my family was having for dinner so I shouldn’t have a problem eating the same.🙌🙌 stay strong and keep fighting!!🧡💛💚 #recoverywin #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveyisworthit #recoveryjourney #foodisfuel
Found a new gym in Sydney and seriously stoked to be training again!! I did arms today and was frustrated to be back down to lifting ~6kgs but thats what I get for taking two full months off from the gym. Here's to lifting again and saying goodbye to my brief cardio bunny relapse. ✌ . . . . . . . . #health #fitness #recovery #edrecovery #loveyourself #embrace #workingonmyself #healthy #mindbodysoul #realrecovery #truth #winning #beatinged #recoveryjourney #recoverywin #selflove #yourbodyisntwrong #edwarrior #keepfighting #lifting #aesthetic #fitchick
So after a visit to the Physio and a chat to Dr M, I’m allowed to walk with no binder and do some basic core work. This will help strengthen my core and help stabilise my hips and glutes. Still a long journey but this news got me so excited. So tonight I did a quick 3km walk with no binder ~ felt amazing. Better than with the binder. Onwards and upwards 😍
How can I forget to post my weekly Roast Dinner? I’m so behind it’s unreal. I do apologise! 🤦🏻‍♀️ Anyway, on Sunday my Dad (king of Sunday Dinners in our family 👑) whipped together a Roast Chicken Dinner with all the trimmings (if that’s what you call the sides...?) Was really comforting in the cold weather & on a bit of a difficult day feelings wise for me 💛 - - - Question: What’s your favourite roast dinner go to? My family love meat roasts, but my favourite is definitely a NutRoast Loaf! ☺️ - - - What’s on my plate: • Roast Chicken 🍗 • Homemade Stuffing • Turnip & Carrot Mash 🥕 • Mashed Potato 🥔 • Gravy
Happy Tuesday 😁 I thought id share with you one of the workouts me and my boyfriend do we both do the hiit workouts together cause i mean you know what they say couples who train together stay together 🤣. A serious leg burner save it and give it a go. Swipe ➡️ for my post workout double choca mocha shake 1 tsp of @percol_coffee A little boiling water to dissolve the coffee A big scoop of @thatprotein choca mocha 200ml @alpro organic soya milk 1 banana A small handful of kale i usually use spinach but id ran out Blended for 30seconds in my @ninjakitchenuk So good after you train i usually make it an hour before the gym and leave it in the fridge to stay cool. #nourishrecoverglow #workout #hiitworkout #postworkoutshake #recipe #percolcoffee #thatprotein #alpro #workoutoftheday #hiittraining #vegan #plantpower #dairyfree #glutenfree
Current feels - day by day definitely a work in progress and trying to adjust to having ‘different’ goals than I did a year ago but prioritising my health whilst still ensuring a balance of some form of strength training and movement (otherwise I would go crazy!) #onedayatatime #hormonehealth #hormones #hypothalamicamenorrhea #balance #strengthtraining #girlswholift #fitness #becauseiloveit #mindset #newgoals #findingbodyfreedom #recoveryjourney #edwarrior #wellnesswarrior #gymtime #happyplace
In love with this look. I really wanted to change my hair since long time ago, and then this happened 😍. New week new look. Lovely lovely, I feel so great, new things are coming so here I am, ready to face and enjoy them. Have a great week guys. I love you all. #newhair #blonde #change #fashionlover #happy #smily #monday #newlook #bpdrecovery #lifeisprecious #lifeisnow #youjustliveonce #recoveryjourney #myjourney #personal #nonbinary #beatingdepression #stronger #stayingstrong #me #beatingeatingdisorders #prorecovery #smallchanges
Buongiorno 🌞 e buon martedì, stelline ✨ Stamattina non volevo proprio alzarmi e per di più ho la verifica 😞e mamma non può neanche venire a portarmi a scuola 🏫 nonostante me l’avesse promesso☹️ Adesso mi toccherà camminare 🚶🏻‍♀️ dalla fermata dell’autobus 🚏 a scuola 🏫 con il peso dello zaino 🎒 e del dizionario🔡 Le sfighe tutte a me😩 Avrò alle prime 2️⃣ ore il compito di latino 🧐, poi italiano 🔡, matematica 🔢 ed arte 🎭 Sono stra in ansia per la verifica 😩 ma spero 🤞🏻 almeno in un 6️⃣! Buona mattinata, stelline ✨ {colazione: cappuccino 🥛; 2️⃣ mele 🍎; 1️⃣ fetta biscottata 🍞 con marmellata🍶} - - - - - #anawontwin #anawontgetme #anorexiarecovery #recoveryforhappiness #edrecovery #recoveryforsmile #recoveryforme #recoveryjourney #recoveryforpizza #recoveryforpasta
I think a lot of times, we don’t realize how toxic all that what we think throughout the day can be. It’s easy to say that positive affirmations, gentle self-talk, or reframed thoughts are “stupid”, but in actuality they are essential. Think about it: who do you have to live with and listen to more than anyone else? Your brain. You can either hate that fact, and desperately wish to change it, or accept it. If your relationship with your mind isn’t where it needs to be, maybe it could use some mending. After all, you’ve spent time putting yourself down, I’m sure you can find time to add in some positivity. ~ 🍂 For me, reframing negative thoughts is really important. Especially those related to my ED, which can often feel irrefutable. I have to remind myself that another way of thinking DOES exist, and IS valid. ~ 🍂 For example, I have been having an intrusive thought lately. So, I can begin by stating it, and then reframe it using judgement-free language and fact-based evidence: ~ 🍂 Distorted thought: I need to have my eating disorder until I am 18 for it to be real and valid. I have not had it long enough for people to take me seriously. Reframed thought: People always have taken my eating disorder seriously. This has been proven to me time and again. The only one who feels it isn’t valid is me, and I know I have distorted thoughts. The amount of time I spent in my ED doesn’t matter; it is still real. Besides, there is no set date when it began, and I had many distorted/ED thoughts before it “officially” began. The ED wants to keep me trapped, last year it told me I just had to wait until I was 17 to recover. It will never be satisfied. Life, and all that it has to offer, will not wait for some arbitrary date while I waste away. I will never be satisfied with how far I went into my ED, so might as well accept this initial shame and know it will get better. I have the power to change my fate, and make a better life. Choosing to stay stuck in my ED because it is tempting me would not be strength, and no one would respect me for that. I have so much more to live than this. Even when it’s hard to see, there is life beyond ED. ~ 🍂 I hope this helps ❤️❤️
If you have borderline personality disorder: ✨you’re not inherently manipulative ✨having emotions like fear, anger, and sadness and expressing them does not make you manipulative ✨you are not automatically a bad person We need to learn the difference between manipulation and emotional distress, because one is done with the intent to hurt someone or get someone to do something, and the other is a cry for help.
I could use more of this! It is fucking #beautiful !! There are so many of you on here that I #vibe with... wish we could do it in real life!!!Sending you all virtual hugs and #sober , happy #vibes ! 🤗🙏🏼❤️✨
Binge free for 3 weeks! Binge meaning eating a large amount of food in a short period of time, usually alone and in secret, followed by extreme guilt and shame. And skemtimes (at least in my case) followed my laxatives or diet pills and skipping meals the next day. #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #edwarrior #realrecovery #bedrecovery #edrecovery #recoverywarrior #recoveryjourney #edfam #edfighter #prorecovery #balancednotclean #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #nourishnotpunish #screwthescale #yourlifematters #liveyourlife #lifeisbeautiful #foodisfood #foodisfuel #curvygirl #staystrong #loveyourbody #selflove #positivementalattitude #pma
What are your dreams? Today I listen to one of the most powerful podcast that I've ever heard. It was with @tereraitrent who's from Zimbabwe and grew up being married off into a polygamous relationship and had five kids by the time that she was 18. One day someone asked her if she had any dreams and she didn't know how to respond. Eventually, the woman who asked her started to get through. She said that she wanted to go to America to become a student and to get a PhD, something that was unheard of in her small village. Despite being married with 5 kids and in an abusive relationship she found her way to America. She found her way here after burying her dream in the ground, literally. It took her over 8 years and every penny she earned just to get a GED. She did it because she believed she could, she did it because her mother believed that she could, and she did it because a complete stranger believed that she could. It's incredible to think how many of us grow up in situations not so dissimilar as her. Maybe we're not married off for a trade of a cow and maybe we have running water and maybe we have electricity but if we don't have belief in ourselves in our dreams then it really doesn't matter where we are in the world. Today she has helped build schools and educate thousands of girls and women and has been called @Oprah favorite interview all time. Trauma may be our foundation but it does not have to be our future. To check out this podcast for yourself visit @lewishowes  #these10aces #not1moreace #adversechildhoodexperiences #selfcare #Portland #pdx #childhoodtrauma #trauma #breakthecycle #traumasurvivor #ptsd   #speaktruth #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalfitness #noexcuses #noexcusesjustresults #youvsyou #liftweights #fitness #fitnessmotivation #fitnesslife #fitnessjourney   #FitLife #recoveryjourney #fitnesstransformation #lifegains
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I have two takes on social media -  I’m going to talk about one tonight then the other tomorrow 📲 ➰ Social media is the where most of my healing comes from • connecting with others who have similar experiences & learning that other people do feel the same as I do has been INCREDIBLY healing for me.  Even thought I don’t necessarily NEED it, having my feelings validated makes me feel like less of a crazy person🧠 I don’t know what I would do without all my “trauma friends” Whenever I’m feeling crazy I have people I can talk to who UNDERSTAND NO QUESTIONS ASKED🙏🏽 ➰ I can’t imagine what type of person I would be if I didn’t have people who I refer to as “outside of the box” to talk to. I’d probably be lashing out A LOT that’s for sure. 🗣 Family & friends are great but sometimes I feel like I’m a burden when I’m having weak moments (I know they say I’m not a burden but its something trauma survivors understand), then I feel guilty, then I spiral down.💀 ➰ SO MUCH LOVE TO MY INTERNET FRIENDS I’M SO GRATEFUL FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ❤️❤️❤️
I was constantly bombarded with negative thoughts, hopelessness, and sadness. You lose yourself to Mental Illness, It takes over Your life. You feel defeated, and lost. But there IS something, that was always there, hidden below, a strength so fierce, Screaming out. I want to live, Please help me now. Emma ♥️ I have been on my recovery journey almost 2 years now. #mentalawarenesstrain #dontgiveup #agoraphobia #panicdisorder #mentalhealthawareness #anxietyawareness #1in4 #recoveryjourney #recoveryispossible #anxiety ##anxietyisreal #mentalhealth #positivethoughts #selfdiscovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalillnessisreal #panicattack #youarenotalone #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillness #staypositive #selfdiscovery #livingwithanxiety #raiseawareness #mentaldisorder #anxietywarrior #youmatter #speakyourmind #inspire #beach
Day 57 Every single inch of my body is screaming at me. We beat our bodies up so much in workouts. Don’t forget self care and recovery. They’re vital to the success and gains!
Dinner tonight is a big bowl of spiralized zucchini noodles sautéed together with spinach, diced tomatoes, onion, and garlic, plus some lean turkey meatballs for extra protein and roasted tomato pasta sauce. Honest update - these past few days have been really hard. My anxiety is worse than it’s been in a long time and i’m having a really difficult time coping with everything. Last night it all came out in one big exhaustion-fuelled breakdown of tears and I realized how much I really am struggling. Everything has hit me at once over the past few weeks and it’s been overwhelming. I’ve take some huge steps forward in terms of my overall recovery, but the day-to-day stuff is what’s hard. Dealing with calorie increases and digestion discomforts, distorted/negative body image issues, a lack of sleep, isolating myself, feeling a (possibly paranoid) lack of support/invalidation, my shifts at work are getting harder and I barely have the energy to get through them, I notice my body is physically hurting a lot more often, my body & mind feel weighted down and heavy...I crawl into bed at night completely exhausted in every possible way and wake up feeling much the same. These days are hard. Recovery is hard. And when there are more bad days than good ones it’s so hard to stay motivated to fight when all I want to do is crawl into bed and hide from the world for a while...but I know all these challenges will still be there when I eventually come back. It’s hard to see the bigger picture or the “end goal” right now so I am trying to stay positive and focus on other good things - the little wins, the little moments where things aren’t so bad. I had a good talk with my mom last night, I put my phone away for a couple hours and had a bath, I had this delicious meal for dinner tonight, I am currently obsessing over the new season of Broadchurch on netflix.... There are good things. It’s hard to see them these days but I just need to keep reminding myself they’re there. Hoping for a good sleep tonight and a fresh start tomorrow!
Another week down. In so proud of myself. I'm actually pretty impressed with myself. The time I would usually go out on the weekends and spend money running around bars, I have spent wisely. I've furthered my knowledge of forex trading, saved a bunch more money, read 3 books so far and obviously boosted my gains. My plan is not to never consume alcohol again, but to guage if I have a dependency for alcohol. It's a self check. And then I move on to the aftercare plan. I've gotten lots of my military brothers and sisters to join me in the 60 day journey as well. Why not. When is the last time you went longer than a month without consuming any substance like alcohol or nicotine. Do you think you could go 10, 20, 30 or even 60 days without it.? Test your will, and self reserve. You might find out alot about yourself.
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