Eric’s death on 11/17/17 was unexpected. It was a typical enough day for me. I went to work, got out at 12. Eric picked me up from work but told me he was dizzy and nauseous, so I had to take the wheel. It was odd because Eric never trusted me to drive his car, but I didn’t think much of it. I drove us home. He went to continue working on the final software project he would on his life — augmented reality software for a major appliance maker. His work was amazing.
I don’t remember hearing this as I worked in the living room, but this was the last video he filmed, as I silently binge watched Jane the Virgin. Draco was Eric’s #beardeddragon
& Eric loved him to death. Anyone who wonders if Eric was happy when he dies, needs to just watch this video. He was more than happy.
At night, I got a bad feeling that something had happened to Eric. I don’t know why. He’d been in the guest room and I was in the living room, again, and my heart started beating very quickly. Doordash came and Eric wasn’t responding to my calls, to the bell, to my texts. I rushed to the guest bedroom door to give him his food.
I don’t know why, but I yelled, “Please don’t die on me.” I went to open the door and it was jammed. How could I ever save him? I found a knife and undid the jam and found Eric totally unconscious on the bed.
At 8:50, I used his phone to dial 911. “He’s a deadweight,” I said, as I felt for the pulse I couldn’t find.
While on the phone with 911, I was able to get Eric’s pulse back. He took three deep, heavy breaths. The police arrived just after that and kicked me out of the room.
At 9:53, a police officer informed me that Eric was “gone.” He’d woken up that day with a huge smile on his face, hugged me, told me he loved me. At 9:53 PM PST, he was gone.
I was in shock that night. I couldn’t look out as he was wheeled out of our home in a gurney, covered in a white sheet.
I didn’t want to call his parents, but I had to. And I told them, “Eric passed away tonight.” Our lives would never be the same after that day; they’ve become so deeply intertwined by the deep hole his loss has caused.
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