2018 was simultaneously one of the most magical and terrible years of my life. I came face to face with amazing success met with dismal personal failure, opportunity met with hardship, joy met with loss and grief, hope met with severe disappointment. I experienced injustice, pain, hurt, loneliness, bewilderment, and a long stretch of time when God seemed far off and indifferent to my cries. I hit bottom many times, and sometimes admittedly lay there awhile looking up at the stars through bitter tears before rising. And I can say today I am stronger for the struggle. I walk into a new year woke to my value, my identity in Christ and as a powerful, self-determining woman who has learned to rise.
Still I Rise
BY MAYA ANGELOU
You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
’Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
’Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history’s shame
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise. #wcw #mayaangelou #againstallodds #selfesteem #strongwomen #oppression #injustice #resilience #confidence #hope #womanempowerment #singlemom