This is my time
shout out to this amazing human being and amazing stylist in her second tattoo 1/2 sleeve timeless tattooing made to last .
Booking appointments for next week @blackcoffintattoo @lokocharlie
Work in progress., next time we color the roses 🌹
My biggest supporters❤️ amazing fundraiser for Change the Outcome! We are doing it!!!
.... For My Sister on the other side of the door...For you:
10 Years...Of seeking, of giving, of searching.... 10 years of loving and staying, and crying for joy and in pain, but staying. 10 years of freedom and feeling and trying and failing and finding true self love. 10 years of living self to love you and letting go to let live. Freedom sure ain’t free Sis- it’s hard won with faith and failure. 10 years to come to serve and to accept this -I am thoroughly protected, I am expertly guided and I am truly, deeply and divinely loved. #impowered #livingwellproject #soberissexy #iseeyou #blackgirlmagic #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior
And... this is for My Mama too❤️🙏🏾#nylachristian
Most bad people believe they’re good people. I’m self-aware, so I embrace the fact that I’m both.
Awesome 📷 from @paradigmgreyfilm.
FLAT BELLY NOW!!! Hello abs—in just 3 days. 👆🏻👆🏻You’ve seen headlines like this👆🏻👆🏻
If it sounds too good to be true, it probably is. 👀And I just read this one on a very popular health and fitness magazine👀😫😳🙄 It takes so much healthy food to change body composition. It Drives me bananas when I hear the standard "just eat less!" or "cap your calories at 1200 and you'll be fine!" No. You won't.
You'll be starving and dive into a pint of ice cream or swing through a drive thru because you're so freaking hungry. Hell, I would too if I had to cap my calories or eat less. Wait, scratch that.
I did! I used to do that and I have been there. Never Again!
If you're ready to stop struggling once and for all and gain access to all my tips and tricks that keep me lean and on the right track, me and my girls are starting next week in my online fitness support group: Team Wellness Warriors.
Message me or comment below if you're sick of yoyo dieting and ready for wellness.
- I can’t believe it’s been close to a year. Some days are definitely easier than others. For example, I almost cried yesterday when I walked past a group of people sipping wine on a sunny sidewalk. But then I got over it, made a big-ass pitcher of spa water at home and read for hours. Not a bad way to spend a sober weekend. Onward! #stopdrinking #soberissexy
Peace of mind over anybody and everything 🕊
Cityscapes = strong aesthetic 🏙💪
A few weeks ago (pre-back injury) I spent an afternoon downtown, taking photos of all the famous buildings. I came back buzzing, it was a fun way to get my bearings in a new (and very big) city 🇨🇦😊
Vegan food in Toronto = not an issue 💛🌱
Grilled cheese with spinach and mushroom, with fresh OJ and bottomless coffee 🍊☕🍞
It can be tough meeting 'The One' when you're single & sober. It's real easy meeting 'The Just For Tonight' though when you're off your fucking face with no inhibitions & wearing your beer googles...😳🍻
When you're clean & serene & looking for more of a spiritual connection instead of a chemical one, where do you start?! I'm going to be honest, I have absolutely no idea! I do know though that bars have got to be the worst place EVER to meet anyone when you're in recovery...or not in recovery for that matter! If you're wanting stimulating conversation from someone who's half cut, think again. Prepare yourself. You're going to hear that much shit, you won't know whether to offer them a breath mint or toilet paper! 😷💩
There's nothing more unattractive than a drunk guy stumbling around a bar, slurring his words, being a complete sleeze bag & thinking he's Gods gift to women. You're not charming me by telling me I'm the most beautiful girl you've seen all night, when you've clearly got vodka vision, & I just heard you saying the exact same thing to a ladyboy at the end of the bar (when in Thailand)! Sorry mate I'm single not fucking desperate, & unfortunately for you I'm sober so I'm not falling for your bullshit! Although you'd probably of had the old me at hello... 😩😂
Drunk women (🙋🏽) falling off their own legs look even worse! Tequila is actually notorious for turning a solid 8 into a sloppy 2 in approximately 5 shots. Then, after one too many trips to the bathroom to powder our noses (in both senses), we end up with our jaws swinging faster than Tiger Woods 9 iron & looking like our face just got gang banged by a box of crayons. If you're slurring into your wine glass & need to take your high heels off to walk, it's probably time to call it a night pet...🤡🖍🎨
By getting sober you can stay safe in the knowledge that you'll never wake up from a blackout next to someone ever again & wonder who the fuck they are. Meeting people in a bar drunk is like going food shopping hungry... you bring home shit you don't need! If that's not a reason in itself to not get wasted I don't know what is! 🤦🏽♀️🍷
Have a fab week & remember sober is the new sexy!😎
Thank you to these women especially for being the examples I follow everyday which have led me to one year of sobriety today. I am so fortunate to be surrounded by inspiring, powerful people who have transformed my life. God works through these women and I’m so grateful we can cheer each other on through our successes and be a shoulder through the hard times. You guys show me what’s possible. I am so so blessed. Thank you for all the love this day and everyday.
Guess it’s just how I look these days...
Inspired by @soberupbuttercup
s share=can’t believe this happened to us in the same day!!! :
FaceTime with the ex this morning b/c our 4 year-old asked to.
And the lovely ex has the audacity to say in a text after:
“you look hungover. Have you been drinking with Caleb there?”
The anger is indescribable....the pain that someone I used to cherish refuses to see or acknowledge all that I’m putting into this life...infuriating.
But most of all, painful and scary because the consequences could be catastrophic.
The accusation of putting my son, my everything in such a situation...
My reply(via text):
“I look tired because I’ve been in finals all week for grad school, working at a psyche hospital, teaching yoga classes, lead a mindfulness workshop, training for a marathon, volunteered at church yesterday, and have been taking care of our child with no help at all. You, by the way, actually do look and sound hung over. What’re your excuses?”
I know that last part was mean but...I’m a work in progress.
A year ago I would have internalized all that and let it eat me up.
People will doubt you dear ones.
And y’all, it’s not about the substances, it’s the emptiness that causes people to use.
If you want to help someone who seems to have a problem, lay the accusations down and ask:
“What do you need to feel whole?”
For those working hard on their recovery:
You can hear your internal voice again once sobriety kicks in,
I promise it will be worth it.
Pic by @ruralrouteii
#sober #soberissexy #soberaf #cleanandsober #cleanlife #teetotaler #soberlife #recovery #recoverystory #soberstory #twelvesteps #12steps #god #godslove #namaste #hipsobriety #namate #highpower #cleaneating #odaat #onedayatatime #onestepatatime #sobergirl
Happy Earth Day from our perch to yours! 🕊💕🌎 An unedited collection of 10 views from our spot on #LakeOntario
including video of when a hawk perched right outside while I challenged #fibromyalgia
and won via trying & accomplishing eagle pose for the first time.
We are all so blessed to share this wonder-full & healing planet, let's do it our very best, every divine day!
#SignsFromAbove #WonderfulWorld #MagicIsEverywhere #EarthDay2018
My idea of afternoon delight. ❤🐳🌊🌞
Day 947. The Relics of Bondage.
'They' say that alcoholics are lazy. But, I often think about all of the trouble I went to, to get and stay drunk:
Last minute hustles to the liquor store to ensure that my cup would never run dry. .
The stress of financing my secret stops to buy booze. (Yes, I became one of those people that ended-up securing a private credit card for the express function of maintaining my addiction without external scrutiny. Fun fact: I'm still paying it off.
Smuggling 13oz bottles of rum into the house, tucked into my socks or waiting until the household had fallen asleep to retrieve a more acceptable, ample supply. .
Being as quiet as mouse, cracking cans of diet soda as a mix. As if it really mattered what it tasted like?
Concocting excuses to depart from the action during social events, so I could take a few giant wonder-chugs directly from the bottle, to speed things up. .
Pushing through the physical pain: obesity, shortness of breath, nausea, headaches, pinching, pulsating cramps beneath my ribcage and back. .
The arduous task of pretending to be sober: every move and breath calculated with precision.
The constant worry: When will this fucking train finally derail? .
EXHAUSTING, not lazy. It's tough work having an addiction. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. When I speak of freedom, it's because there is no other way to describe what it feels like to have such a burden lifted from your shoulders.
Pictured: Someone left the shell of a goodtime at the baseball diamond. Even as an active alcoholic, I gave extra credit to beer drinkers. Having to lug around heavy cases of bottles or cans, and then disposing of the evidence always seemed like such a pain in the ass to me. .
#PeteonRepeat #sobriety #sober #soberlife #soberaf #soberissexy #recovery #wedorecover #beer #relics #freedom #life #inspiration #iamnotanonymous #thisismystory #beercan #ballpark #hope #odaat #onedayatatime #imitationoflife #photography #writer #iamthestorm #writersofinstagram #wearthestorm
It's not too late to start getting in shape for summer! Make time to be selfish for yourself and your health. If you can't run, walk. Do a little more each day, choose to put down the phone & get off the couch. Live your life ❤️
#bodypositivity #fitmom #basicmom #sahmlifestyle #soberissexy
As an alcoholic I understand this more than I would like to understand. Too much wine....too much beer....too much of anything... Some days I see others “normally” enjoying alcohol...having fun and it makes me grieve the good old days, but I am grateful I can remember my last drunk and remember there was no pleasure...zero. The pleasure was all gone. I was truly sick on what began as fun. I follow many sober IG accounts and I am grateful for them and my recovery. It is important for us in the recovery community to be here to support each other and the still suffering alcoholic and addict out there. Recovery is everything to me today! Grateful! #recovery #12steps #sober #soberblogger #cookiestoner #2year5months25days #soberissexy
Yeah! Another sober weekend coming to an end. Grateful to be hangover free, and starting a new week in recovery. Hit that like button if you’re right there with me!
Reppin’ my roots today. #DCchillin
Peep Akira in the background.
As promised, I wanted to share my progress photos with you. 😊
On the left was the end of August 2017 when I decided to commit to making some serious changes in my life and my health and fitness. In the middle is when I started T25. And on the right was yesterday.
I get very emotional going through all of my photos because it's been quite the journey so far. A lot of ups and downs and times I’ve felt like giving up, and days where I feel like NOTHING’s happening because the scale doesn't budge much...but pictures don't lie. 🙅🏻♀️ My hard work and perseverance has paid off...and I'm not done yet. 🙂 In fact, this is a lifestyle, not something you do temporarily.
I'm sharing this because I want you to KNOW that wherever you are right now in your journey, that you CAN make a change! It's SO hard to see that sometimes, and you cry, and want to give up because our expectations are different than what happens right away. It takes time...but it happens if you push through that!! And rather than thinking about the entire journey, think about putting one foot in front of the other, one day at a time! Be patient with yourself, give yourself grace, love yourself and take care of yourself. It's not about looking good in a bathing suit - it's about waking up every day just feeling good about YOU and comfortable in your skin. 💖
I have so many friends here who’ve been following this journey I’m on, and wanting to come along. PLEASE don’t let another 30 days go by without taking action. DO this WITH me and have YOUR transformation photos to share!
I’m accepting new lovely ladies in my group, and I’d be honored to help you along the way. Don’t be shy to reach out to me!! 😘
#SoberWeightLossJourney #SoberisSexy #WhyNotYou #TransformationPhoto #BeforeandAfter
I literally only went for a walk so I could wear my new shades.
Oh. And buy sunscreen. It's that time of year!
In an interview a little while back, the beautiful host asked me how women could relax or have fun after work, without drinking.⠀
"What's something they could do instead, to feel better instantly?", she asked.⠀
But you and I know it's not always that simple, is it? If it was, we wouldn't have found it so hard to put down the glass in the first place. ⠀
So, what if we go deeper than that?⠀
After our last call, many of you asked how you can better understand what it is you're REALLY craving. Because deep down, we know that happy, healthy sobriety isn't simply a matter of removing the alcohol and hangovers - it's about filling our cup in delicious new ways.⠀
It's trying new things, and nourishing our beautiful spirits. ⠀
It's establishing healthy boundaries and discovering what truly lights us up. ⠀
It's getting inspired, unleashing our creativity, and allowing ourselves to redefine joyful, messy fun.⠀
Let's face it - achieving long-term sobriety (and actually loving it) calls for significant lifestyle and mindset adjustments.⠀
In supporting hundreds of women from around the world, I've noticed five elements in particular that make for joyful and successful long-term sobriety.⠀
Members, grab your journal and join me live for our call tomorrow, angel. I can't wait to dive into this topic with you! x⠀
Problems feed on fear. Blessings feed on faith. Which wolf are you feeding?