*I AM 6 MONTHS SOBER*
i am so fucking proud of myself.
there have been so many times where it would have been so easy to fold. to find solace in the bottom of a bottle of vodka. but i chose the hard road, the difficult road, the road that so many times was almost impossible to take.. and i am so glad i did.
booze turns into drugs which turns me into the worst version of myself, a version i despise, but also at times crave. under the influence, i am anxious, panicky, self destructive, and dangerously impulsive. but i am also confident, able to dance, able to talk to strangers, and able to party.. and sometimes i miss being that. and that’s ok.
sobriety is complex, hardwork, confusing, frustrating, and at times completely unbearable. but it is also incredible, freeing, beautiful, and life changing.
i just wanted to take a moment to thank some of my biggest influences, as well as supports when it comes to my sobriety:
- our heart to hearts got me on this road, and though i have walked away from this road a number of times, they’ve always brought me back to here, and inspired me to take each day at a time, even when it’s hard.. especially when it’s hard. you inspire me with your own sobriety. you are amazing, and strong, and i love you. ♥️ @ddlovato
- speaking so openly about your sobriety, and recently, your struggles with it, have inspired me more than i can even say, and i hope to get to tell you that some day. ‘sober’ hit me, and i relate to it so deeply, through my own struggles. stay strong. you’ve got this. ♥️ @thekatvond
- you’ve always spoken freely about your journey with sobriety, and it’s been a journey that’s been pretty public for you, which i can only imagine has made it harder. thank you for your honesty and vulnerability, your story has been one i’ve looked to constantly over the past few years. ♥️ and to one of my close friends, @selfloveliv
- your journey is only just really beginning, but you inspire me so hard. i appreciate the way you share your story on here, in hopes of helping others. you are now forever my “free” sobriety sister. the road will likely never be easy, but i gotchu, and we’ve got this. ♥️