~PLEASE READ~ Today was an epic workout. 6×4 with 92,5kg in squats was EASY. Then I started to think back to all my years when I was really injured in my lower back and never thought that I would be good again and definitely not chasing my dream to compete in powerlifting. I remember when I was 17 years old and had so much pain in my lower back so I had to roll down from my bed, when I was 19 years old and had national test in school in mathematics and the only thing during that test I thought about was how much pain sitting on that chair gave me or how many times I had to say no to shopping with my friends (which in the long run gave me even more social anxiety too) because I couldn't go for several hours in a shopping centre because of my lower back. All the physiotherapists I went to never knew if I would be good again. And now I'm here stronger than ever and knowing that I some day will compete in World Cup in powerlifting and have that gold medal in my hand. I CAN FEEL IT BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN MYSELF SO MUCH. IF I DON'T BELIEVE IN MYSELF, WHO WILL?!
Regrann from @naomif90
- Mental health issues/illness is something that is most of the time not understood. The awareness around them is growing as the years progress which I love so much. Mental illness is a hard and often lonely fight, it helps having the right people around. People who understand and want to help you through it. It’s taking so much strength to even post this. Well, my journey with mental illness only really started this year. I was spiralling bad, I ended up depressed and with my partners help, I realised that I had depression. I went to a psychologist and got diagnosed with: General anxiety, social anxiety, depression and borderline personality disorder. I’ve started therapy for the BPD and I’m trying to rekindle the relationships I have lost due to my mental health. Thank you for reading my little non fiction novel. #mentalhealth #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #anxiety #imworkingonit #mentalillness #depression #DBT #selfcare #socialanxiety
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S U N D A Y T H O U G H T S ☁️ PART 1//
Lets talk anxiety/depression and the restrictions it may hold over you & your life.
Does anyone else often feel trapped by their own mind, not allowing them or telling them they can't do something? I've been in such a rut the past few months, kind of afraid to even try to do things - no matter how much I want to do them.
I promised myself I would stop hiding and start talking about things more openly, especially when they are really affecting me and these past few months have been shit for me to be honest. There's no point in hiding it and if I can even help one person then it is completely worth it.
For me there's not a particular trigger, I just get trapped in my head every now and then, more often than not. I am the type of person who doubts their abilities, despite how good you are at something and I've found that when I have something to stick to (such as going back to college) it opens me up to new things/experiences, being in social situations as it actually really helps. I'm a really social person by nature so it's crazy that it restricts me in this way because I actually thrive around people.
However as soon as I don't have anywhere to be, it all starts again and I become a bit distant from life/ everything/everyone in it.
Honestly felt a bit lost, especially career-wise, the past few years and although there's things I want to try/know I would be good at, I'm literally too afraid to even start. I'm at such a loss because in my friendship groups, I am one of the stronger personalities but it's so easy to fall into the trap and feel imprisoned by my own damn mind. (Tbc)
#fuckdepression #breakthestigma #yourenotalone #itsokaytonotbeokay #youdoyouboo #mentalhealth #depressionawareness #papyrus #anxiety #selflove #anxietystruggles #socialanxiety #anxietyawareness #mentalhealthawareness #tiredofbeingtired
Since this page is about sharing your story, I will share one of mine.
I was in my maths class, just doing the work like normal when my hand started shaking. I was confused by this so I just kept writing. Then I felt like people were staring at me and that was when I realised something was up but I said nothing. At that time I did not want people to see me in that awful state. A couple of times I tried to get someones attention but it did not work. Right now I am surprised that no one questioned why my head was in my hands. It just shows how unaware people are.
If in the future you see someone who looks stressed, worried or upset please go to them to see if they are okay!
#socialanxiety #anxiety #help #panicattack #mentalillness #social #helping #love #socialfear #fear #scared #hope
Honestly, I am not ok... I feel worse than ever before and I don’t know what to do against it...
Whilst trekking through the Croatian wilderness, I came across these little fellas. • Traveling the world solo with a traumatic brain injury was pretty damn hard but I found comfort behind the lens to hide my social anxiety! Yes, thanks right, I was hiding. But hey I took some pretty cool pictures along the way right? The camera became my little safe house and spat these out in return.
Is it obvious I like to make a corset on my crocheted tops? 😁
Just ordered a ton of organic cotton from @hobbii.dk
and it's like Christmas has come early 😀 this is my third project in 4 days. -
Btw thanks for the love and support on my last post. It really means alot to be able to share my personal struggles. Even though this is a channel for my crochet I think it means alot to also get a feeling of the person behind the pictures. I also love following others creative souls who likewise speak openly about their mental struggles. So thank you ❤
Ps. I don't know why the pictures flipped back in the side.
What would you say to your best friend?
🙈Lets switch the pattern -Let’s see more instead of taking pictures, listen more to nature, animals, birds instead of hearing the cars and the noise in cities. Use more natural light, spend time in nature rather than Tech and social media. Talk more in person then on the phone.Walk more rather than using public transport, have cooked food rather than takeaways ,and the list can go on!🤨 #comfortzone #personalgrowth #personaldevelopment #meditation #motivation #socialanxiety #somethingnew
You know how when you're like "When I achieve this massive goal, I'll be happy" or "When I overcome my anxiety, I'll be happy"? Well FUCK THAT, fuck it in the face!! •
If you wait for things to be perfect to be happy, you'll never be fucking happy. Perfection isn't something that exists and trust me, when you get to your goal, you'll always want more and you'll always find ways to improve things. So stop putting off being happy and find happiness in the NOW. •
Find happiness in the small wins, like getting out of bed in the morning, like managing to leave the house when you were anxious as fuck. Like answering the phone when you REALLY didn't want to.
Find happiness in the progress. Like how you're trying to recover or how you're improving your health and be happy in the changes you have made so far.
Find happiness in the things you have ALREADY achieved, despite being faced with challenges. •
Most of all, remember, that happiness isn't a constant state, only gained by perfection, it's a feeling, an emotion and it's important to feel ALL of the emotions. Good and bad. 💕
Sunday, day 4.
I’m still here, but I am finding the amount of food and the variety very confronting!!
Foods that I don’t eat and the regularity are starting to get to me.
Today I woke up not hungry and had to eat cornflakes with milk.. I don’t like milk and milk doesn’t like me!
Then sweet biscuits. Then a salmon and carrot sandwich for lunch... silly me chose it 🙄. So I was so full I had to lie down until afternoon snack! Snack was a banana- well I freaked out as I haven’t been able to eat a full banana in in over a year!
Ended up having a supplement drink instead. Now I have to lie down again before dinner. I hope I chose dinner wisely!!! And of course milk 🥛 for supper 😝😝😝
But I AM determined to try!!! I’ve still got at least 10 more days to go 😩
#hospitaladmission #adultanorexia #adulteatingdisorder #ibs #inpatient #tired #foodanxiety #socialanxiety #recovery #urgh #sunday