Today I fasted.
I had been craving a cleanse day for a really long time and it actually went a bit better than I expected. I have a bit of a headache but nothing major.
At some point I was feeling all sorry for myself and guilty for not being able to be “productive”, because I have debts, I was feeling like something is wrong with me because I’m still single (pathetic much?)... And then I started reading the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali (see previous post), and afterwards I heard a little voice in my head, so peaceful, so kind and so full of love, that said “I’m a good person”. I always get big revelations when I fast.
And you may laugh but this was a big ah-ha moment for me. Of course I’m a good person. I’ve never committed any crime, I’ve never stolen, I’ve practically never lied in my life, I say good morning, please, thank you and good bye, I care for other people, I am considerate and kind & generous, I’m not a materialist. I think I am pretty open-minded, I recycle, try to avoid plastic, try to consume mindfully & educate myself... I read books and go in Nature.
Mind you I’m - obviously - not perfect (so very far from it), but I most definitely am a good person.
I am becoming aware of the fact that I have gone through a lot (like a LOT a lot) more stuff in my life than most people. Some of the things I’ve been through don’t even seem real, in hindsight. But they are.
And so yes, maybe I am temporarily unable to work, and my body is giving me a hard time, and I can’t contribute to society in the capitalist way for a while; and maybe some of my traumas still need to be processed so I can feel relaxed about dating... but I am a good person and I do the work.
I am trying my very best and I think I should stop comparing myself to the IG version of people & life for a while (how about forever?) - and so should you.
This is a reminder that your worth is not determined by antiquated standards of patriarchal values.
You are worth it. You are so totally deserving of love (and self-love) and kindness, respect and compassion. 💗 .
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