Coffee first☕️ We are currently on the road to visit our parents, as we are going to a concert there tomorrow.
We still remember about one year ago, changing places from @nordlichtpoesie
house to ours every week, caught between hopeless thoughts, dysfunctional coping mechanisms, fear, pain and despair. Looking at today and the past months, our achievements are like hella’ unbelievable. Finally there is light, finally there is hope, we have found our place and everyday we are regaining some glimpses of life. And damn, we are so proud ✨
Trying to destroy my biceps at the end of the session with 4 sets of
12 Side hammer curls (each arm)
20 Barbell curl
12 dumbbell curl (each arm)
Planting the seed! Building the foundations of my goal, a lot my hard work and struggles to get thete!
The last couple of weeks were ultimately frustrating and sent me over the edge. I had a rage induced dissociative episode...I was told cops were involved before I was brought to the hospital handcuffed to the gernie in the ambulance. I don’t remember anything except for flipping a table and I only know what others have told me that I did. It was a lot of things that were big in my point of view such as trying to be in social gatherings involving a couple people I am not fond of, an openly racist neighbor, being midgendered for the millionth time by one particular neighbor, being lied to by staff, them not keeping me in the loop in regards to my medications/contacting my pcp instead of the correct provider overseeing my over the counter supplements, going to the grocery store when it was super busy/crowded, writing a long stream of conscious to my counselor to try and explain certain things assertively which she didn’t even read, and getting told suddenly that I was going to have a new counselor that didn’t work in the building regularly and that it was effective immediately. The last two things were the boiling point.
#ptsd #agoraphobia #mentalhealth #dissociation #rage #thingsbuildingup #anxiety #panicdisorder #panicattacks #struggling
I’ve been sitting here for days thinking about whether posting this picture or not.
Since forever I’ve been struggling with accepting my body and even if this pic only shows a minimum part of it, I’m still unsure how to feel about it. •
It’s been taken while in Hoi An, Vietnam, at our beautiful apartment and despite the very relaxing moment I couldn’t help feeling a bit uncomfortable while my partner was trying to snap a decent pic. •
I’m not sure how many people will actually read this caption and how many will just quickly like the pic when scrolling their home page. But I would really love to hear your opinions and stories, if you’re experiencing (or if you’ve experienced) the same.
If you’re going through a difficult moment of self acceptance and how you’ve managed to cope with it ❤️ Thank you as always for your sincere support.
There is light at the end of every tunnel. Some tunnels just happen to be longer than others
On Saturday 22nd of December, we will be giving back to the community by asking all our chiropractic patients to bring in toy donations in leu of treatment fees for their chiropractic visit. Everyone is more than welcome to bring in a donation at any stage. Thank you to everyone who has supported us so far and to those who are going to in the near future.
As you can see some of our patients have already started donating. So far we have 39 toys to give to Westside Community Care, a non-profit organisation which reaches out to struggling families in The Greater Springfield area. Our goal this year is 70 Toys for donation, so we are well under way.
Toy donations are to be priced around $20 for boys and girls from the ages of 4-8. And no need to wrap them. Of course even if you don’t have a Chiropractic Visit the 22nd December, please feel free to still bring in a Donated Toy…open to all Patients.
I have one WEAKNESS. I never know tomorrow. When something strikes me, I do it there and then. I just START IT.
Therefore, when I saw a good friend of mine who's a single mum and very hardworking I really wanted to help her. Her story is so touching and she's going through a lot of struggles that as a young single mum, it was so much for her.
I decided to help her, but then not only her is going through that struggle alone.
What of those widows whose husbands died and are left with nothing? What of those wives who were divorced and are struggling to take care of their kids alone? Living a hand to mouth life?
We've seen them in the streets begging with their kids. They are even in orphanages with their kids.
My worst nightmare would be me leaving this dunya and leaving my wife as a widow in the streets begging with my kids or struggling to take care of our kids with no enough financial strength to take of them. "I won't wait until I'm a millionaire or billionaire to help the people in need, I'll START it NOW," I said to myself.
Alhamdulillah, I donated my whole book to this foundation. It's just a small book that will cost 100/= but will sure go ahead to help a struggling single mother in the streets, orphanage and village maybe.
I believe Allah blessed me with this writing talent not to enrich myself and become rich, but to help and lift others. As I always say, after helping yourself with one hand, use the second one to help another person.
Anyway, let's talk more about this book during it's launch on 22nd December in shaa Allah.
#books #bookstagram #singlemothers #singlemoms #struggles #struggling #write #writer #author #booklaunch #booklaunching #foundation #draudi #moms #mama #single #parents #dad #singledads
Feeling the hurt and pain of losing my baby. He/she was due any time between 26th December and 7th January. The hurt and pain never goes away, you just learn to cope with it a little more each day. 4 years of trying for a baby and then the opportunity being ripped away from you within a matter of weeks. Feeling so alone right now. Mummy loves you Codi and always will. Miss you so much. I wish I got to hold you and see you grow up. I will never forget you👼❤ #miscarriage #angelbaby #struggling #upset #help
Ok soooo sorry I’ve been so fuxking inactive. I’ve gained a lot of weight recently and I hadn’t really been thinking about it cause my sisters been helping me try and create a healthier mindset. I feel like shit again tho. I weighed myself and feel like a pig. I feel incredibly disgusting and kinda fake for being this fat. Idk I feel like a catfish like I look thin with clothes but if you take them of you’ll see all my fat. Ohh well idk what I’m gonna do. I really wanna have a healthy mindset but it’s so much eAsier not to
Possible trigger warning.
Shit day. I'm hoping Waratah don't accept me into the system and the monitoring clinic closes down as I was told and I'm free of hospital apps finally. I'm so sick of this. I just want to live my life as I please. No recovery is not possible so no lectures. I can maintain at a certain weight to sustain medical stability but that's it. I'm happy to see my gp weekly and have weekly blood tests as I do now but that's all I want. I want to be left alone. I've had enough. It's been so long, do they not get it already? Restricting is my way of control. It gives me a great sense of control of my life in things which I don't have control over. I'm sure those who suffer #anorexia
understand completely but for those who don't won't. It's complicated and it's ok if you don't understand. I just ask for you not to lecture me. Stand by me, hold my hand. Have a coffee with me. Be my friend as you are that's all. Treat me normal is all I ask for. If you can't do that then I ask you to walk away. Don't question what I eat. Don't talk about what I eat. I'll eat what I want and when I want. I'm sorry if this upsets you but I'm not trying to upset you. I'm struggling and at the same time I'm just trying to live life to the fullest. .
#anorexia #anakills #ana #ANOREXIA #struggling #livingwithaned #adultwithed #anakills #ana #AN #ed #anorexianervosa #struggling #livelife #livingwithaned #iwantoutofthesystem #lovemeforme
can really throw us some curve balls and strike outs. Time and time again! This year has been one hell of a year but one thing I know that seems to always #help
to some good #music
and just allowing those thoughts and #feels
move through my body.
Unfortunately due to copyright reasons I can’t play the music here that I’m dancing to but if you’re ever having a bad day from a few too many things going wrong in your life turn on the song #RISE
by Andra day and dance along with me.
“And I’ll rise up
Rise like the day
I’ll rise up
In spite of the ache
I will rise up a thousand times again”
Sending much love to all those hurting, #loving
, and living. We can #rise
up and carry on. Move your body, feel the love and rise! 💜
I'm not sure if we can ever fully love someone.I think there's always a part of us that remains untouched,this small part that lies dormant just waiting for another kind of love we can only get from somewhere else.Alot of us have seen people devote their entire lives to eachother only to watch whatever chemistry that held them together fizzle out than find them again in a different yet similar form.Can we completely love someone else when it's hard enough to love ourselves?The price we pay to chance that connection with another and have the opportunity to accept the love or hurt they can give us is basically crazy and within that craziness we seek some form of sanity.From what I've learned there are typically two sides to everything so its important to realize that we cannot have one side without the possibility of experiencing the other.Alan Watts said that to fall in love was an act of gamble and an act of faith.We place all trust and confidence into another or hope for the best of luck for a desired result.In the end it's all just chemicals and choices,even a shitty moment in our lives is still a moment in our lives,it really just depends on how we take it.
#amateur #philosopher #struggling #thoughts #alanwatts #love #emotions #chemicals #heart #broken #realshit #writing #quick #view #drawing #sketch #idea #colorpencil #pen #ink #life #moments #lovecandamageyourhealth