It's 1 a.m.
I'm on my bed.
There's a knock on my door,
I open the door. Ah! There you are, I say to my old friend, Shame.
Come inside. (Meet Shame, my old friend, who never let me sleep) Shame enters in, and I make tea for us. Shame starts the conversation, it is not okay to be jobless or to be without a woman.
We both sit there, somewhere, in my home. We sip tea, look into each other’s eyes. The only sound we hear is clock’s seconds' hand — singing merrily tick, tick, tick.
There’s still tea left in the kettle; I fill our cups.
Shame continues, you can't fail, the world outside is flourishing. You see, everyone is doing one or the other thing. They all are doing something...something great, and they are trying to save the world.
I ask, saving from whom? He keeps mum; I nod.
We continue to talk, about our old friends and their whereabouts.
I take another sip, I feel awkward, so I continue to sip. I pretend to be comfortable.
I break the silence, I say,
Fear is still in touch with me; Doubts are guest faculties these days, they do visit me, and entertain me on their visit.
Happiness has lost touch, not sure where he has gone…must be in abroad.
No, Shame says, Happiness has started his startup and is getting married next week to his girlfriend, Sugar Rush.
Shame knows, Guilt and I broke up, years back; I miss her. Occasionally. And that, I continue to breathe, anyway.
Shame tries to mock me, says, out there, men are dating more than a woman, sleep with every next woman they meet, you loser.
Shame points out again — you must do something, you should be exceptional at something. At least, at one thing!
It's too late, I think we must go to sleep; I pat his shoulder.
We walk towards the door and wish good night.
I slam the door. Shame goes back from where he came.
I say to myself, it's okay to be a
Shame-less man - Sumit Asrani
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