all the time
I was looking outside for
a place of solace
where making mistakes is no disgrace,
a place where I am not a victim
of my shortcomings,
a place where people greet each other
with the flower of kindness
rather than wrapping my soul
with the blotches of all the wrongs I did.
the night screams
stay awake, stay awake,
so, I stay awake at night
covered with the blanket of nails,
for I failed to fulfil other's expectations
and that of mine.
Ah! I wish
and I wish badly, I could find that place,
but then the abyss
hugged me tightly,
and kissed my forehead,
I took a risk
looked at the darkness in its face,
looking outside is not the way to find that place,
for it is like asking guests to tell me
where is the treasure chest hidden inside my home.
not so soon, but I did realised that the place
is within me;
If I have to enter and dwell there
I have to learn to
be kind towards myself
and learn to
for all the wrongs I did.
I slept without any pangs
the morning greeted me with flowers
the safety vault opened
I must now enter that place,
the one I was seeking,
the door is open now - Sumit Asrani
#sumitasrani #poeticsaga #beardedpoet
I made many mistakes, many stupid ones also, in personal life and professionally. I kept on making wrong decisions one after the another. Derailed my career. Personal relationships with people weren’t good either. Then I kept on cursing myself for all the things that went wrong. The only option was to make it right somehow, but for that, I had to first forgive myself.
Slowly, I learned to be kind to myself and forgive myself for all my wrong decisions. Things didn’t change with my forgiving, but it lighten the burden off my shoulders. Because of which I learned to be kind and forgive myself and others for things that go wrong. And I realised if I can’t fulfil my own expectations or that of others, how can I expect others to fulfil mine. That was my lesson — Forgive myself for all the wrongs, take one step forward at a time to move from darkness to light.
Tell me what was one lesson you learned in 2018. I want to hear it from you in the comment.
Happy New Year💕 🤗