It’s this guy’s birthday today, and he has spent the last 3 days in hospital by my side.
On Friday his adored Nan died. As we waited for the drugs to kick in, he got a phone call, and he was crushed. He then watched his wife go over a pain threshold we didn’t know existed. He rubbed my back as I cried silently in agony. He believed me when I said the pain was so bad I thought I was dying, and he fought for extra medication to help make me more comfortable. He held me while they gave me injections to treat the pain. He wiped the tears from my eyes and the sweat from my brow as I lay, paralysed by pain and drugs. He laughed hysterically with me when the meds turned me into a burbling nut-case. He stroked my hair and told me I was the most beautiful woman in the world while I lay bleeding on the floor. And he slept on the cold bare lino by my bed for two nights in a row, holding one of my hands in his, and the gas and air mouthpiece to my lips with the other, as I was too weak to hold it myself. He carried me when I couldn’t move, and picked me up from the floor after the first triplet arrived. We lay with our tiny baby in our hands and wept and smiled together because despite all the pain and sadness, that moment was so full of love. He held my hand during the torturous forceps delivery of the second triplet. He paced the corridors as the doctors discussed taking me to theatre for surgery, and fought for the preservation of my fertility and our future chances at having children. He was supposed to be at a memorial weekend for his close friend and colleague who died ten years ago. Instead he has been supporting me, while going through the same heartbreak himself. He is, quite simply, the best human in the world. Happy birthday, my darling. I’m sorry this has been a complete shitter of a weekend. If I could change it, I would, but I wouldn’t change you for all the world. There’s no one else I’d rather bleed, cry, and giggle with all in the same moment. We have lost time and time again, but with you by my side, I’ve won.
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