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as I type this I don’t really know where i’m going with this. all I know is i’m going to explain to you where i’ve been and why i’ve been gone. this summer i’ve gone through many changes. my mom and that side of the family (+ me) moved to a new house. my dad and his side is trying to find a new house (+ me). i’ve been working a ton. i’ve been stressing about nursing school. i’ve been wondering if i’m going to meet taylor. i’ve been telling myself the concerts will be fun no matter what which is true.
the biggest reason I’ve been absent lately is because I recently figured out i’m bisexual. queer, gay, pan, whatever label you want to throw in it, I like people for who they are,not what they are. i’m still me, christian, weird, goofy, etc. this has been a time period of a lot of support and a lot of self doubt. not all of my friends know. not all of them will understand. my dad does not know. he will not understand. i’m struggling to find the balance between when I want to come out to everyone I know and be my most authentic self, but also protect myself from the shame and negativity that is going to inevitably come towards me. am I just pushing off something I know is coming or am I doing it for the right reasons? so I fell away from this account, feeling awkward and alone because most people here who are lgbt are out and free and brave and I am not. if you’re someone I know in real life who follows this account, know that if I trusted you then, I have an unholy amount of faith in you now to not disclose this part of myself to any of my other family or friends until I am ready to do so. anyways, i’ve signed up for counseling at my college because i’ve been up and down lately and while I don’t think i have any serious mental health concerns right now, preventative mental health care is important too. anyways I came out on tumblr last night so thought I owed you guys the same courtesy. now I can be back and be myself here and get super hyped for nashville and kansas city!!
thanks if you’ve read this far. ily
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