I remember the first time I walked into an audition for a major school musical. I was a junior in high school and I was shitting in my pants. I had NO experience in a play before (other than some small gig in 5th grade) and had NO idea what to expect walking onto the stage. 😰
As I stepped out there, I thought of all the auditions I DIDN’T go to. All the times I let fear and insecurity win. The time I walked out of an audition for Sister Act because I felt like I couldn’t compare to the other voices I heard warming up. The times I saw the other girls who were auditioning and thought I couldn’t hang with them so I chickened out. ALL those lost opportunities because FEAR won the argument in my head. 😔
But not THAT day.
That day, I walked out there were sweaty, shaking palms and I told the voices in my head to sit down and shut up. Once they did, I sang. 🎶🎵🎶
I remember looking over at my choir teacher after I sang my last note. She stopped playing the piano, looked up from the keys, stared me straight in the eyes and smirked. 😏
I got the lead. ✨
Today, I sat my oldest down before he left for school and looked him right in the eyes. Today will be HIS first audition for a musical. 😬
I told him to tell the voices in his head to sit down and shut up. I told him to go out there, give it his all and no matter WHAT happens, I’m fucking PROUD OF HIM because I know first hand what that moment feels like. I know the fear, I know the self doubt and I know the insecurity. But I ALSO know that just getting up there and DOING IT is a victory in and of itself....because overcoming fear and anxiety is better than ANY role they give him.
So for those of you praying types out there, please send a few extra positive vibes his way. Here’s hoping his voice doesn’t crack, he doesn’t fart audibly on stage and that he wins the argument with those voices and goes through with it 🤞🏻