With Reynauds disease, when the body gets cold it pulls blood from the extremities. It is trying not to freeze to death. It is numb and most often very painful. How can something numb hurt so much?
Pittsburgh is actually my home. I come from that specific neighborhood and have family of choice who were on lockdown during the height of today's shooting. Isn't it all of our home? Don't we all have family of choice there? In that synagogue and with all targets of violence and hate?
Though it's my reflex, I wish my response to tragedy were not numbness, circulation ending abruptly and a retreat back into myself and my core. This is a time not to be numb. In face of fear, grief, shock, I aim for strength, warmth, home, family, feeling, outreach. Response.ability.