You are my past; I have deleted you from every part of my life. I gave you too many chances, something I am famous for doing, and while I typically avoid regret, I cannot help myself; I regret even speaking to you after you hurt me the first time. You never deserved my kindness, my friendship, or my love. I know now that you are not a kind, caring person, you are not a true friend, and do not deserve any space in my life
I’m not sad that you’re not here. I don’t miss you, I no longer wonder what you think, or how’d you’d react to something funny that happened.
My sadness has dulled. It comes from other places, like the occasional wish to share good news or celebrate accomplishments w/you. The fact that it would be completely abnormal for me to reach out & tell you the news, or to talk about life, really. I imagine how I would feel if I ran into you accidentally, & it hurts me that the LAST thing I want is to see you. I know we’d both respond w/forced awkwardness. I hope you’re uncomfortable because of you’re own dishonesty w/me. You’d never admit it, & even knowing that, it still doesn’t sting!
Yet, I am occasionally haunted by certain memories. I am human! What haunts me the most is your words (lies) via places like social media, or in person, where conveniently for you, you could delete/deny them.
I struggled w/that for a long time. It hurt to recall how trusting I was! However, none of it matters now. It doesn’t matter if you’re happy, sad, healthy, successful or if you’re being honest! It’s not my business. My friendship is not yours to have anymore. You never appreciated it, and I’m not even sure why I wanted you to. Our memories have blurred. I’m disconnected from you. Indifference & distaste have replaced my sadness.
IF you ever miss me, (which is unlikely) remember you made your choice, & I made mine!
But, I want to Thank you for showing me that those who don’t care about me, aren’t worth my pain! Thank you for reminding me how important it is to love myself first! Thank you for forcing me to choose me. #signedyourexfriend
Edited from #thoughtcatalog #wecanallrelate #peacefulheart #goodforthesoul #growth #forgiveness #selflove #ciao