Depuis plusieurs jours , je lutte contre l’anxiété avec un peu de dépression et j’essaie de survivre dans ce monde même lorsque j’ai mal. Mes nuits sont pénibles, je perds mes forces, mais je m'accroche jour après jour pour tenter de m'échapper. Je vis dans une solitude et une différence qui m'ont fait craindre d'être seul au milieu du monde entier. J'espère sortir de cette anxiété qui bouffe mes jours et mes nuits pour gagner contre le diable et ne plus vivre dans la solitude et ne plus vivre seul avec ma différence.
Je vous remercie d'avoir lu
Je vous aime et je ne vous oublie pas
Eighteen Months Ago one of my former doctors told me that it would be unlikely for me to make it to Christmas. Those words have been on repeat in the back of head since then. This year was probably the most difficult of all my years battling Cancer. I don't remember ninety percent of what went on earlier this year and that led me to lose many things I held very dear. Upon that new diagnosis, my former doctor’s words became louder and more prominent in my head. My biggest fear became that he might’ve been right. No matter how much I suffered battling the two cancers, I never quit because I believe that miracles truly do happen. Over time I began to use his words for the better. I made sure that those words would be my new playlist for the work I had ahead of me. After being bed ridden for about eight months, I began to train my mind/body in order to give myself a fighting chance. The stronger I got, the more I believed I could end up on top of this. I'm proud to say that my scan this week showed that I’m in REMISSION! If it wasn't for the love of my family and the friends that stuck around I truly don't know where I'd be. My parents are the strongest people I know and have always lead me down the right paths in life. No matter how much i suffered I just couldn't quit on them because they never gave up on me. Thank you all for your kind messages and prayers. I can’t stress enough how important you all are to me. Thank you for always being there for me. I will keep working to diminish any kind of negativity in the minds of people who’s paths I cross. I suffered eight long grueling years battling Cancer and if I can pull off this miracle anything can happen. I love you all and hope you enjoy the holidays. God bless!