You are the one that got away.
I made mistakes and wrong decisions in my life. One of them is letting go of you in lieu of a love which was uncertain. It was not after years that I realized this mistake. I decided to reach out for you to reconcile even just a little friendship... I might die anyway. But when we finally met months back, I felt the same feeling I felt for you before... those days before when we cherished every moments we were together. And even the smallest detail, I could remember. From what you wore when we first met, to the scent you used to put on, the laughs and tears we both shared... i knew that day, I was still in love with you. But there were things that have changed. I knew you had somebody else now, I pretended not to know. Im sorry. I grew selfish. I would die anyway. All I wanted was to have you near me. I made a choice to see you often because I felt happy and I found a reason to fight for my life. To lengthen what is left for me to enjoy. I did fight for it because you've shown the mutual thing. We both know it was wrong. months passed and I saw it became difficult for you. I don't want you to end up choosing between me and Him because you equally loved us. I was part of your past. He is part of your present. That for me is clear. I was selfish. But to prove that my love for you is pure, I have accepted the implicit choice you make. Thank you for not speaking it upfront to me. Because even if i don't show it, and speak of it implicitly, i knew you didnt want to hurt me that much in accepting your choice. Deep inside I know you loved him better. He gave you the love I took from you. Supplied all the support when I left you with emptiness. I just came in at the wrong time. But having realized all these things, yes. you deserve someone like him. And so, there's no point for me to fight for it. Thank you for making me feel how it is to be valued and loved even for months. It's sad it won't end up the way I wanted it to be. But that sadness is overcome with the consolation that you are beloved by someone who can grow old with you. And that for me is an assurance of a happier you. Yes, you are #totga #whiteflag