Whew!!! This will be my attempt at being incredibly #transparent
When Dylan mentioned today's #QOTD
quote "If you live for people's acceptance, you will die from their rejection." I was super hesitant. However I just replied with a simple "Do it" while inside I was like no thanks. I almost avoided this reflection today.
Why? Bc both Lecrae and this quote are sensitive topics for me. Lecrae's music symbolizes a super positive yet, really rough time in my life. Then the quote was about looking to others for acceptance. In 2009, I almost "died from their rejection". I had placed so much of my value into other's thoughts of me and due to that my life can't crumbling down. It was like investing every dime I had, my house, my job, everything into an ocean side property in Arizona. Disappointment, embarrassment, unbelievable self hatred, shame and guilt.
That investment into finding value in myself from others lead to a bankrupty of self worth and value. I drank, cried, and hid from the world and then rinsed and repeated.
From all of this I eventually bounced off of rock bottom and started listening to Lecrae. From that moment on, my life has never been the same. All of the music in my life is positive and influential in my growth. Not to mention I started on a deep journey of finding #selflove #selfvalue
while also looking to #bebetter
. From there I fell in love with myself, #leadership
and the power of #selfappreciation
Finally, I watched the @amyschumer
movie I Feel Pretty the other day and it really hit me how hard we all look to others for self value and appreciation. This caused me to dig deep in #selfreflection
So to complete this post I say #BEYOU
, AND #STAYHUMBLE
#newpodcast #Courageous #courageousisupodcast #sisu #believeinyourself #keeptrying #vulnerability