Sitting and mirroring myself my actions and reactions since I meet my TF.
He is always with me, energetically and emotionally we travel together, I even learn how to respect his need of being in his cave with full acceptance of his needs. (Even though we don't share it with words in 3D)
Beautiful, I also meet my fears when I realized that I needed him, me who always had taken care of myself and others.. Suddenly meeting someone that I needed, I also had to see my resistance to allow myself to see that I was worthy to receive his love.
It is far from easy with my childhood where no one was around, so I could only trust myself handling life.
I was also programmed to believe that women can do everything themselves, we are equal to men and don't need anyone.
Well it is not true since we are different, we can do it all, but what is the cost?
Why do we battle? When it is all about seeing that the woman and man makes each other complete, in giving and receiving but differently.. To allow myself to see that and surrender to the fact that this is my situation, IS beautiful... I love my inner peace and I just embrace to receive unconditionally, all which is shared from heart and soul.
Although I had to meet much pain, to see it All.
Blessed day in Paradise it IS.