November is National Adoption Month. Our #connectakid
highlight is Patrice Hartfiel. These are her own words. "I am a Korean American Adoptee, one of hundreds of thousands.
Everyday I live with adoption, being adopted, being a Korean adoptee. I strugglewith being in between...not being Korean enough, not representing Koreanadoptees enough, not finding myself enough.
Everytime I look in the mirror. Some days I wish I had the beautiful milky smoothskin of other Korean women, instead I have a darker tone. Some days I wonder ifanyone out there looks just like me.
Every time I log into Facebook. My timeline is flooded with my Korean adoptee friends, their pictures, their statuses.Some of you make a serious impact on the KAD community, while I can barely makeit to work on time each day.
Some of you can speak the language, read and writeHangul, and eat kimchi everyday. Every time I cook, and instead of atraditional Korean recipe, I'm taking a good ol Minnesotan hotdish out of theoven, a part of me feels like a failure. I haven't really taken part in a lotof adoptee events, because it gives me anxiety. I always think nobody will likeme or talk to me if I go.
Every time I look at my kids.I feel ashamed I can't immerse them in their culture like I should. I feelworried that I may be passing some deadly or horrible genetics to them. I fearthey will grow up to think I'm not Korean enough to teach them anything aboutthe country I was born in.
Every time I receive yetanother disappointing email from Children's Home Society that no response hasbeen given from my birth mother.
Most of my day is spentstaying busy with work and my kids, but every day, even if it's just for a minute,I think about all of this.
I have a very good life. Roofover my head, beautiful children, a partner who loves me for me, great friends,a job that provides and parents who have loved me since the moment I came offthe airplane. But I do live with these thoughts each and every day.
But I am thankful for thislife. All of this has made me who I am today."
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