It’s been 4 months since I’ve been in Nashville and one of the greatest compliments I’ve received since being here is “You Look Happier.”
Happiness did not happen over night. I stopped traveling for work which has allowed me to create some semblance of a daily routine in my life which I previously struggled with. I’ve also used fitness as my positive outlet; not only working on my own individual fitness but also coaching, training and mentoring others. I’ve removed toxic relationships from my life, therefore, allowing that time to be refocused in better directions that benefit me and my life.
Even with all that being said, my chronic depression is still very relevant in my life. There have been days and weeks as of recent where I just couldn’t shake the feeling of sadness and irritableness. •
It’s crazy to think over 300 million people will experience depression at some point in their lives. It impacts everyone differently but there is no doubt it has an effect on your daily life whether it be routines, social activities, sleep schedule, etc. I, personally, am more of a high-functioning depressive who is easily able to mask what I’m feeling. •
Often those with depression learn to alter their moods and may be some of the most seemingly “happy” people you know. They want you to remember the positive and public parts of their demeanor so as to not bring others down even if it means hiding your true feelings.
With all that being said, knowledge is power. There is so much information out there related to depression and mental illnesses that most people are ignorant to. There is still a negative stigma that someone who has a mental illness is “weak.” Heck, I thought I was weak.
Facing my depression head on this year has been the best decision of my life. It affects me daily but I am doing everything I possibly can to work through it and come out a better person in the end. I hope I can inspire others to also do the same and be open about what they are going through and seek help where needed. It’s important to remember that we all have our own stuff going on in life, not to judge anyone by the outside and take a breathe and remember that “It’s gonna be O.K."